Last eighteen hours,
Being thru 2 church weddings, 1 lunch , 2 services,
Shopping for gifts and going thru sme public transport thinking and seriously thinking hard..
Ive suddenly realized what I’ve been wanting all this time..
Something so clear , something so sure..
Perhaps it was apparent in the past
Just nothing close came along.
Yet thru it all,
I am excited for those who have found what they’ve so desired…
Yet I,
Still remain in doubt..
Time shall tell,
What holds beyond..
Clubbing.. brings friendship together..
But ultimately, what life’s big offer presents..
Remains invisible..
How long shall thee be in wait..
I have no clue,
Desire none else..
N remain in thy sole state..
In want of you..
And the very best of what you have in store from me…
I love you Lord,
I the simple me, have no clue of what you have in store for me.
I leave it to you Lord..
Warm Regards!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Casting Crowns - Who Am I
Goodness.. wat a great song...
Indeed not because of who I am but what you've done for me.
Thank God..
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=CT7x3VnrqbA
Indeed not because of who I am but what you've done for me.
Thank God..
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=CT7x3VnrqbA
Monday, December 24, 2007
Christmas Isn't Christmas ....
It's Christmas Eve..
I'm heading to Orchard for the last round of gifts..
Last nite.. Carols by Candlelight Service
How come i dont rem it ever being so warm.. perhaps coz this year was right at the Plaza?
and then that one song..
Christmas Isn't Christmas
till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas for you.
Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle's glow.
He's waiting now to come inside
As He did so long ago.
Jesus brings gifts of truth and life
And makes them bloom and grow
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes you'll know
That Christmas isn't Christmas
till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas,
Christmas really Christmas,
Christmas really Christmas for you
Such a soothing song with words that touches me deep within..reminds me that Christmas isn't about just partying and shopping.. but it's about the celebration of the birth of Christ.. n then it reminds me of how God has blessed my life time and again even though I've failed Him so very often..
Christmas should be a time of warmth and love n a reminder of the birth of Christ.
I have discovered .. have you?
I'm heading to Orchard for the last round of gifts..
Last nite.. Carols by Candlelight Service
How come i dont rem it ever being so warm.. perhaps coz this year was right at the Plaza?
and then that one song..
Christmas Isn't Christmas
till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas for you.
Jesus brings warmth like a winter fire
A light like a candle's glow.
He's waiting now to come inside
As He did so long ago.
Jesus brings gifts of truth and life
And makes them bloom and grow
So welcome Him with a song of joy
And when He comes you'll know
That Christmas isn't Christmas
till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you
Is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus
You'll discover when you do
That it's Christmas, really Christmas,
Christmas really Christmas,
Christmas really Christmas for you
Such a soothing song with words that touches me deep within..reminds me that Christmas isn't about just partying and shopping.. but it's about the celebration of the birth of Christ.. n then it reminds me of how God has blessed my life time and again even though I've failed Him so very often..
Christmas should be a time of warmth and love n a reminder of the birth of Christ.
I have discovered .. have you?
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Marriage
2007 has been a year of many wedding invites.. I woke up today to rec 2 envelopes , both wedding invites from my baptism friends.. same baptism class, same age..
Last nite On Facebook , i discovered that Eric has proposed to Cheryl... Both my age.. Last week a colleague's wedding, she's 27.. n at my Mgs reunion.. it was announced that Enying's tying the knot next year, Kelly told me abt hers in 2008 too..and 2 are alr married..
and our dear Connie just brought a baby into the world.. Baby Kayla...
Oh dear oh dear.. e whole world's getting married.. n I'm very happy for them.. but seriously, full of envy because it was never easy looking at marriage so quickly in my last r/ships.. I tried but failed.. n I think it's great that @ 26, these people can be convicted of their commitment to each other..
All in God's time I guess..
Last nite On Facebook , i discovered that Eric has proposed to Cheryl... Both my age.. Last week a colleague's wedding, she's 27.. n at my Mgs reunion.. it was announced that Enying's tying the knot next year, Kelly told me abt hers in 2008 too..and 2 are alr married..
and our dear Connie just brought a baby into the world.. Baby Kayla...
Oh dear oh dear.. e whole world's getting married.. n I'm very happy for them.. but seriously, full of envy because it was never easy looking at marriage so quickly in my last r/ships.. I tried but failed.. n I think it's great that @ 26, these people can be convicted of their commitment to each other..
All in God's time I guess..
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
GREETINGS viSitor~
Welcome.. my friend.. aka ASS .. soon u'll see a pic of u up!! and so.. MUAHAHAHA.. u'll be exposed to the world Wide Web of nasty Voyeurs.. recognising u from a girl's blog who stays miles away from Amazing Thailand... n then u'll be in trouble having to answer tons of qns from AAAHHHEEMM!! MUAHAHAHAZZZ!!
It's an evil world out there..
and change ur silly nick for goodness sake.. the last name sounds like Guai Lo!!
It's an evil world out there..
and change ur silly nick for goodness sake.. the last name sounds like Guai Lo!!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Chorus - stealing glances
lookin across the hall
there u were ..
looking across e room..
there u were..
smile flashed across
my spirits simply lifted..
there u were ..
looking across e room..
there u were..
smile flashed across
my spirits simply lifted..
Saturday, December 15, 2007
DVD - The Tiger and The Snow
Goodness for such a dumb title.. this movie certainly has depth! and of course it was directed by the same guy behind Life is Beautiful - Roberto Benigni ...
He went thru minefields, warzones, deserts in Iraq just to save the woman he loved so dearly.. Even when she had nth for him..
Eventually he saved her.. but only in the last 10 mins of the entire movie did I realise who she was to him..
Very Well produced..
Superb show for the =( n disillusioned.. ha!
n let's put the soundtrack in here so I'll never forget..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgeZEdbv_m8
He went thru minefields, warzones, deserts in Iraq just to save the woman he loved so dearly.. Even when she had nth for him..
Eventually he saved her.. but only in the last 10 mins of the entire movie did I realise who she was to him..
Very Well produced..
Superb show for the =( n disillusioned.. ha!
n let's put the soundtrack in here so I'll never forget..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgeZEdbv_m8
Post-Villa by its not easy~
25 hrs it took
to have my memory in a loop
replaying scenes of yesterday
in the night and in the day
dazing here for a while
least e distance is not in miles..
The smile so unforgettable..
smell irresistable
sparkle in that crystal eye
makes me melt i cant tell a lie
wish e presence would be once again,
coz missing u can drive me insane
oh how.. can u tell me how
aahh ignore me.. im just talkin out loud..
to have my memory in a loop
replaying scenes of yesterday
in the night and in the day
dazing here for a while
least e distance is not in miles..
The smile so unforgettable..
smell irresistable
sparkle in that crystal eye
makes me melt i cant tell a lie
wish e presence would be once again,
coz missing u can drive me insane
oh how.. can u tell me how
aahh ignore me.. im just talkin out loud..
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
simple n real..
My Grown Up Christmas Wish
Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee; I wrote to you With childhood fantasies.
Well, I'm all grown-up now,
And still need help somehow.
I'm not a child, But my heart still can dream.
So here's my lifelong wish, My grown-up Christmas list.
Not for myself, But for a world in need.
No more lives torn apart,
That wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
And everyone would have a friend,
And right would always win,
And love would never end.
This is my grown-up Christmas list.
As children we believed The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely Wrapped beneath our tree.
Well Heaven surely knows That packages and bows Can never heal
A hurting human soul.
Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee; I wrote to you With childhood fantasies.
Well, I'm all grown-up now,
And still need help somehow.
I'm not a child, But my heart still can dream.
So here's my lifelong wish, My grown-up Christmas list.
Not for myself, But for a world in need.
No more lives torn apart,
That wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
And everyone would have a friend,
And right would always win,
And love would never end.
This is my grown-up Christmas list.
As children we believed The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely Wrapped beneath our tree.
Well Heaven surely knows That packages and bows Can never heal
A hurting human soul.
granny's 86th bday
my aHma is 86 yrs old today.. ripe old age.. held her hand and realised it was really shrivelled skin ..n very thin her skin.. hai.. she asks me to visit her more .. yeah.. guess i should even though she can be so problematic to others.. she's just old and lonely i guess..
Oh well.. took lotsa candid photos with e kids too and i think they've suddenly grown up again.. must've been a long time since I've seen them..
Managed to catch up with my cousins too and im glad i've managed to bridge the gap that mum widened..
As for mum.. I can't understand y she can be so selfish in some ways.. why does she seem so heartless n so difficult to get along with at such times?? hai.. hope i dont turn out like that when i get older.. 1st was granny.. now.. mum.. am i next in line.. i better pray hard that I dont..
Oh well.. took lotsa candid photos with e kids too and i think they've suddenly grown up again.. must've been a long time since I've seen them..
Managed to catch up with my cousins too and im glad i've managed to bridge the gap that mum widened..
As for mum.. I can't understand y she can be so selfish in some ways.. why does she seem so heartless n so difficult to get along with at such times?? hai.. hope i dont turn out like that when i get older.. 1st was granny.. now.. mum.. am i next in line.. i better pray hard that I dont..
Saturday, December 08, 2007
Sisterhood!
Just read na's blog . Worrying piece of news! You better listen to me and go for a check up.
n mar.. Just rambled some frustrations away at her. Irritated the h*** outa me! 4 e 1st time she's got me darn pissed!
n mar.. Just rambled some frustrations away at her. Irritated the h*** outa me! 4 e 1st time she's got me darn pissed!
Taking e train
Can be really enjoyable, focus away from e road. Standing yet enjoying.. Crowded yet not irritating.. Better than being in e driver's seat suddenly.. Maybe i should give swiftie a rest 4 awhle. :)
Friday, December 07, 2007
I've been misunderstood.
Sometimes.. u try too hard..
to help.. n ppl see it in another light..
u try to create some incentive n shorten the duration.. ppl ssee it as selfishness..
sometimes.. u shld just not bother... then ppl can live their lives n u live their own.. n no one can be blamed but themselves...
to help.. n ppl see it in another light..
u try to create some incentive n shorten the duration.. ppl ssee it as selfishness..
sometimes.. u shld just not bother... then ppl can live their lives n u live their own.. n no one can be blamed but themselves...
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
bACK from BangKok!!
its amazing thailand indeed!! went there with my best friend , kelvin kor kor and 'Colleen" hahaha.. we certainly had loadsa fun!
3o/11 1st day touched down real late, my client Ronald came over and introduced us to this Club - Blog 9 along this bustling street with crazy clubbers!! never knew it existed in Bangkok all these years!! and of course the card & drinking game got us a little weee even b4 we arrived there.. they were playing great music.. great crowd .. least its better than KL.. n the food (that was supposed to be our dinner) all i remember of it .. the super indigestable 'calamari' .. bite n bite but cannot break into pieces!! haha! so glad there were street stalls that sold yummy fried chicken..
1/12 .. to e tailor-AMBASADOR to do my suits n shirts n argh!!! my ZARA shirt's still with them !!! they better ship it back to me!! MBK was revisited n it was boring!!! after 8pm we headed back to e apartment n to our greatest horror!!opened e apartment door n colin appeared !! we thought someone broke into our place!!! brought us to RCA n drinking once again.. then 'dabao-ed' supper n headed back to e unit.. drinkin continued.
2/12 .. reknowned CHATUCHAK!! confirm cannot miss! bought loadsa stuff in 2 hours.. but still not enough time.. then tailors n off to Central n Siam square area again.. n woohoo!! massage !! that was super duper! $40 for 2 hours .. cheap cheap!!! back to room for supper at 1130pm n more drinks!!! hated it alr!! till 5am
day 4 - ahh.. tired...went to chinatown for yummy sharksfin w abalone n some dishes for only $40!! n i almost flipped when kelvin pointed out that we gotta check this out!! I saw the guy chopping up a dog!! a real life dog!! lost my appetite n was dazed for a while.. now i'll just forget that painful scene!!
tailors for final collection n then to siam again n i whizzed off with Ron for dinner n biz talk while they went to Pepper Lunch for dinner..
i was engaged in very long conversation that got me back around 4am.. n those fools were still up!!! they drank almost the whole bottle of Mcalan.. mad drunkards!!!
by 5 am.. they were more sane.. helped em fin up e drinks n off to bed.. heng.. they didnt insist on more drinks.. n mar n me.. tucked under the cool sheets..lying like stickers in the huge bed n talked till sunrise..
Told her I think i've been taking her for granted all this while.. n after everything said.. Mar.. still my one n only best friend!!
today is the 5th of dec.. 3am.. obviously not having a jetlag.. but the crazy odd hours of sleep certainly affects e biological clock! time for me to detox, sleep proper n stay away from the hazardess alcohol madness!! so sick of it!
3o/11 1st day touched down real late, my client Ronald came over and introduced us to this Club - Blog 9 along this bustling street with crazy clubbers!! never knew it existed in Bangkok all these years!! and of course the card & drinking game got us a little weee even b4 we arrived there.. they were playing great music.. great crowd .. least its better than KL.. n the food (that was supposed to be our dinner) all i remember of it .. the super indigestable 'calamari' .. bite n bite but cannot break into pieces!! haha! so glad there were street stalls that sold yummy fried chicken..
1/12 .. to e tailor-AMBASADOR to do my suits n shirts n argh!!! my ZARA shirt's still with them !!! they better ship it back to me!! MBK was revisited n it was boring!!! after 8pm we headed back to e apartment n to our greatest horror!!opened e apartment door n colin appeared !! we thought someone broke into our place!!! brought us to RCA n drinking once again.. then 'dabao-ed' supper n headed back to e unit.. drinkin continued.
2/12 .. reknowned CHATUCHAK!! confirm cannot miss! bought loadsa stuff in 2 hours.. but still not enough time.. then tailors n off to Central n Siam square area again.. n woohoo!! massage !! that was super duper! $40 for 2 hours .. cheap cheap!!! back to room for supper at 1130pm n more drinks!!! hated it alr!! till 5am
day 4 - ahh.. tired...went to chinatown for yummy sharksfin w abalone n some dishes for only $40!! n i almost flipped when kelvin pointed out that we gotta check this out!! I saw the guy chopping up a dog!! a real life dog!! lost my appetite n was dazed for a while.. now i'll just forget that painful scene!!
tailors for final collection n then to siam again n i whizzed off with Ron for dinner n biz talk while they went to Pepper Lunch for dinner..
i was engaged in very long conversation that got me back around 4am.. n those fools were still up!!! they drank almost the whole bottle of Mcalan.. mad drunkards!!!
by 5 am.. they were more sane.. helped em fin up e drinks n off to bed.. heng.. they didnt insist on more drinks.. n mar n me.. tucked under the cool sheets..lying like stickers in the huge bed n talked till sunrise..
Told her I think i've been taking her for granted all this while.. n after everything said.. Mar.. still my one n only best friend!!
today is the 5th of dec.. 3am.. obviously not having a jetlag.. but the crazy odd hours of sleep certainly affects e biological clock! time for me to detox, sleep proper n stay away from the hazardess alcohol madness!! so sick of it!
Friday, November 30, 2007
off to AMAZING THAILAND~
2am and my last post b4 i board e plane tomorrow..
still have a 1-to-1 with boss tomorrow at 1030 n i shld be sleepin by now..
Glad im goin on tis trip with mar .. its been a while since we had a more personal trip together!! =)
On hind sight.. why do i wish time wld go by quicker.. heh..
Something's better left unsaid..
Anyway.. i tired myself out today with blading.. n gorging down parkway's yummy steamboat
now my stomach's feelin e flabs AGAIN!!!
alrights..
Na!! we're gonna have so much fun!!!
off to e land of CHATUCHAK/RCA/'tigers' / lady boys/ thai massage/ tom yam soup/ n more more more shopping!!!!
still have a 1-to-1 with boss tomorrow at 1030 n i shld be sleepin by now..
Glad im goin on tis trip with mar .. its been a while since we had a more personal trip together!! =)
On hind sight.. why do i wish time wld go by quicker.. heh..
Something's better left unsaid..
Anyway.. i tired myself out today with blading.. n gorging down parkway's yummy steamboat
now my stomach's feelin e flabs AGAIN!!!
alrights..
Na!! we're gonna have so much fun!!!
off to e land of CHATUCHAK/RCA/'tigers' / lady boys/ thai massage/ tom yam soup/ n more more more shopping!!!!
wats ur number!
actually, you are right,
11 is indeed ur number
coz
if u count correctly,
11... disappearance..
i so look 4wd to a wow by the time 12 comes along!!!
heh!!
11 is indeed ur number
coz
if u count correctly,
11... disappearance..
i so look 4wd to a wow by the time 12 comes along!!!
heh!!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
she's still mine.. =)
oh.. and a complete stranger gave lil swiftie some praises.. her head's swelling with all the praises recently.. maybe I shldn't think of letting her go so soon.. she's treating me well.. perhaps I'll give her a good wash n scrub tomorrow.. heee..
Oh did i mention .. one comment that I may be selling her and 3 ready buyers alr.. wow! she's hot!!!
I love her....
she's my reliable pearlie white SUZUKI SWIFT!
Oh did i mention .. one comment that I may be selling her and 3 ready buyers alr.. wow! she's hot!!!
I love her....
she's my reliable pearlie white SUZUKI SWIFT!
disgruntled?? i don't know...
I wish I could write about how beautiful life is just like e blog entry posted by andrew fang's wife... Perhaps I'm just caught up in dissatisfaction.. I shldn't ... should focus on my blessings not all e negativity..
Today was a packed day buzzing around in my lil whitie.. and travellin north to west to east n then to YWCA for a ministry meeting.. We're supposed to plan e school cirriculum for the kids for 2008.. tat encompasses quite a bit..
I realise that Christmas bells give me that warm tingly feeling.. and somehow.. Christmas always seems to feel more complete with a loved one to spend e season with as well.. but.. oh well.. that's e commercialised aspect.. Christmas is supposed to be Christ Focussed.. perhaps to remember the Birth Of Christ brings us back to our roots again..
Im constantly at a tug of war betwn work, play and God... I need to reflect again.. will I be able to do it in BKK?? the land of thai 'girls', ah 'lady boys' and loads of shopping and food??? hahha.. already.. the thought sounds utterly sinful.. I shall try to catch up on my Max Lucado book.. Facing your Giants in e comfort of my Somerset Residences Svc apartment..
E past week has been a little more balanced altho drinking with Na's bro - Xavier certainly gets me intoxicated.. else.. I've been able to slow things down quite a bit..
n na.. maybe I'm just confused.. maybe i've not given up .. but mar n I feel the same .. nowadays.. its difficult to find it.. we get too fussy more often to even let it start..
Such is the irony of e typical s'porean woman's life.
I think CONFUSING is the word...
Today was a packed day buzzing around in my lil whitie.. and travellin north to west to east n then to YWCA for a ministry meeting.. We're supposed to plan e school cirriculum for the kids for 2008.. tat encompasses quite a bit..
I realise that Christmas bells give me that warm tingly feeling.. and somehow.. Christmas always seems to feel more complete with a loved one to spend e season with as well.. but.. oh well.. that's e commercialised aspect.. Christmas is supposed to be Christ Focussed.. perhaps to remember the Birth Of Christ brings us back to our roots again..
Im constantly at a tug of war betwn work, play and God... I need to reflect again.. will I be able to do it in BKK?? the land of thai 'girls', ah 'lady boys' and loads of shopping and food??? hahha.. already.. the thought sounds utterly sinful.. I shall try to catch up on my Max Lucado book.. Facing your Giants in e comfort of my Somerset Residences Svc apartment..
E past week has been a little more balanced altho drinking with Na's bro - Xavier certainly gets me intoxicated.. else.. I've been able to slow things down quite a bit..
n na.. maybe I'm just confused.. maybe i've not given up .. but mar n I feel the same .. nowadays.. its difficult to find it.. we get too fussy more often to even let it start..
Such is the irony of e typical s'porean woman's life.
I think CONFUSING is the word...
Monday, November 19, 2007
whatz nEW!!
I've taken on a new series of exercise.. been workin out e last 2 days! Couldn't believe the route when I first heard it but now.. I did it! I've conquered !
heh.. nth much just a hike from macritchie to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve.. did anyone know that there's a trail right through ? 1st it was the boring muddy paths of Macritchie then that opened up to the golfin area, didn't know I could walk right along the golf course like that.. and along e way , a huge monitor lizard greeted us.. though they looked more like komodo dragons. haha...
then saw some old wells.. and this Singapore Technologies Ammunition site.. and hmm.. over the KJE.. next to e satelite dish and then through this huge field where e nature reserve could be seen ... somehow didn't quite feel like Singapore.. was similiar to a scene on Lord of the rings.. heh...
Anyways.. journey took us almost 4 hours.. it was cool and great workin out on the flabs.
Yesterday - Sunday... sun burn .. from blading at East Coast..
Ha!! Every weekend shld be this active.. can't stand those baby flabs ... never had em e past years!!!
Alright.. so Na was saying we need one more girl for sisterhood... always odd number.. I say.. sometimes no need to be sister .. can be brudder... ;) like our GX??? heh.. u think so?? wanna join the sisterhood?? But then again.. u dont wanna play mj with us and keep travelling.. bad bad...
Okie.. nuff of my ramblings...
I'm super relaxed coz I'm done with my work!!!!! YIPPEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Play time's begun.. BKK, AuZ, KL???
heh.. nth much just a hike from macritchie to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve.. did anyone know that there's a trail right through ? 1st it was the boring muddy paths of Macritchie then that opened up to the golfin area, didn't know I could walk right along the golf course like that.. and along e way , a huge monitor lizard greeted us.. though they looked more like komodo dragons. haha...
then saw some old wells.. and this Singapore Technologies Ammunition site.. and hmm.. over the KJE.. next to e satelite dish and then through this huge field where e nature reserve could be seen ... somehow didn't quite feel like Singapore.. was similiar to a scene on Lord of the rings.. heh...
Anyways.. journey took us almost 4 hours.. it was cool and great workin out on the flabs.
Yesterday - Sunday... sun burn .. from blading at East Coast..
Ha!! Every weekend shld be this active.. can't stand those baby flabs ... never had em e past years!!!
Alright.. so Na was saying we need one more girl for sisterhood... always odd number.. I say.. sometimes no need to be sister .. can be brudder... ;) like our GX??? heh.. u think so?? wanna join the sisterhood?? But then again.. u dont wanna play mj with us and keep travelling.. bad bad...
Okie.. nuff of my ramblings...
I'm super relaxed coz I'm done with my work!!!!! YIPPEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Play time's begun.. BKK, AuZ, KL???
Sunday, November 11, 2007
44 days to Christmas!
too fast to be true!!! prob wld hear those christmas carols being aired all over e shoppin centres if I do pop in!
Ha! it's been a messy 2 weeks.. my room's in a big mess.. and na, ma, gx! when are u all ever gonna play MJ in moi room again!!! =)
I need to even out my cost ah!!!
Tmr's e start of e work week again .. and perhaps.. the last hectic work week of the year! I shall plan to head to Bangkok around the 25th.. so na! interested??? invite is open to u..
mon-wed.. a week of RS and full day class again!
Better to zzz .. have to target zz time to be b4 12 each day so these tired eyes can be rejuvenated!!
Ha! it's been a messy 2 weeks.. my room's in a big mess.. and na, ma, gx! when are u all ever gonna play MJ in moi room again!!! =)
I need to even out my cost ah!!!
Tmr's e start of e work week again .. and perhaps.. the last hectic work week of the year! I shall plan to head to Bangkok around the 25th.. so na! interested??? invite is open to u..
mon-wed.. a week of RS and full day class again!
Better to zzz .. have to target zz time to be b4 12 each day so these tired eyes can be rejuvenated!!
Saturday, November 10, 2007
back from KL~
Juz got back from KL.. it was fun.. with the musical .. the quick shoppin and drinks by QBA.. now i know somewhere cooler to hang out apart from the lousy beach club area with all the ah bengs and hookers around..this one has class..
Oh well.. now that im back home.. have to face all the work again.. and it's endless.. have to put a stop to it by the 15th of NOV.. must develop a proper structure.. if not it'll really NEVER END!
The last couple of days got me thinking abt stuff again.. and what in the world i am supposed to do abt this situation im in.. just yesterday.. I strangely got reminded abt history again.. damn..
time to wake up my stupid idea again!
Now.. i'm almost gonna KO.. had a tiring journey back coz i was trying to keep my eyes on the road as well.. when I sooo wanted to sleep..
im tired.. yawn.. nitez.
Oh well.. now that im back home.. have to face all the work again.. and it's endless.. have to put a stop to it by the 15th of NOV.. must develop a proper structure.. if not it'll really NEVER END!
The last couple of days got me thinking abt stuff again.. and what in the world i am supposed to do abt this situation im in.. just yesterday.. I strangely got reminded abt history again.. damn..
time to wake up my stupid idea again!
Now.. i'm almost gonna KO.. had a tiring journey back coz i was trying to keep my eyes on the road as well.. when I sooo wanted to sleep..
im tired.. yawn.. nitez.
Monday, October 22, 2007
weekend's gone again
tis weekend..
woke up tis morn with an achin back n my ass hurts! must've been the stretch while trying to aim at every shot durin my game of badminton.
yest was a filled day w rackets, basketball under e scorchin sun, stupid dvd, and midnite movie.
where did i find strength for all that activity.
and then sunday's church, carole's baby's 1 month party, wk appt and a quick shoppin at lido.. then back home for a superb shower and to fin up my long overdue work.
Finally, least I had time for my docs amidst e packed weekend!
Now.. its 1215. yikes time to zzzzz...
fresh new week! 39 days to financial yr end.. so fast! time to wrap up my work n have a niiiiccceee break next month.. cant wait!!
woke up tis morn with an achin back n my ass hurts! must've been the stretch while trying to aim at every shot durin my game of badminton.
yest was a filled day w rackets, basketball under e scorchin sun, stupid dvd, and midnite movie.
where did i find strength for all that activity.
and then sunday's church, carole's baby's 1 month party, wk appt and a quick shoppin at lido.. then back home for a superb shower and to fin up my long overdue work.
Finally, least I had time for my docs amidst e packed weekend!
Now.. its 1215. yikes time to zzzzz...
fresh new week! 39 days to financial yr end.. so fast! time to wrap up my work n have a niiiiccceee break next month.. cant wait!!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
happier posts
gee.. lookin back on my past posts.. nothin seemed really happy and i sound like im caught up in an endless sad cycle eh?
nah.. not really.. just seem to blog more when im =( and in happier times .. im usu out playing...
so wats up lately..
I've purch a new mj table .. waiting for the girls to have the official launch of mj in nette's room.
I've been extremely busy with work work work till late nites and that's taking a toll on me in the earlier part of e day..
I've been given this book by Vic from church.. Facing your giants (Max Lucado) was browsing the beginning few pages and fallin asleep on my bed when sth inside struck me and immed i sat up and intensely read on
Oh I've finally got down to piercin my ear again.
Last Sun was a sweat it out day at east coast.. e sunny weather took alot outa me.. was with Colin, Young Aloysius and the kiddos.. finally made it to bedok jetty again.. n yea.. u had to do that jumping stunt.. a few times.. my heart almost leaped outa my body!
Alrights.. tats all fer now..
sleepy eyes cant focus no more!
Nitey~
nah.. not really.. just seem to blog more when im =( and in happier times .. im usu out playing...
so wats up lately..
I've purch a new mj table .. waiting for the girls to have the official launch of mj in nette's room.
I've been extremely busy with work work work till late nites and that's taking a toll on me in the earlier part of e day..
I've been given this book by Vic from church.. Facing your giants (Max Lucado) was browsing the beginning few pages and fallin asleep on my bed when sth inside struck me and immed i sat up and intensely read on
Oh I've finally got down to piercin my ear again.
Last Sun was a sweat it out day at east coast.. e sunny weather took alot outa me.. was with Colin, Young Aloysius and the kiddos.. finally made it to bedok jetty again.. n yea.. u had to do that jumping stunt.. a few times.. my heart almost leaped outa my body!
Alrights.. tats all fer now..
sleepy eyes cant focus no more!
Nitey~
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
bedok yandao
hey hey..
since u still check out tis humble place..
here's a tribute to my ever so faithful reader..
Well, firstly.. thank you for your company in the smelly hot one-of-a-kind blk 85.. with the yummy chicken wings and bak chor mee~
If my home was nearby I'd be alot fatter.. food's yummylicious o'er there.
And seriously, take me as I am when u are in my presence coz I think I'm quite diffierent online and off. and I think I'm alot more transparent online. So that's just me. Either me.. it's just same nette in split personalities.
As for you.. cheer up yea.. least u got somethin going alr.. and you're right.. love the one u marry may sometimes evolve to marrying the one you love.. with time and divine intervention. End of e day.. nothin's impossible with God!
BUT 1st.. u have to believe for it to happen!
Hope all goes well~
I'm ok.. no worries!
since u still check out tis humble place..
here's a tribute to my ever so faithful reader..
Well, firstly.. thank you for your company in the smelly hot one-of-a-kind blk 85.. with the yummy chicken wings and bak chor mee~
If my home was nearby I'd be alot fatter.. food's yummylicious o'er there.
And seriously, take me as I am when u are in my presence coz I think I'm quite diffierent online and off. and I think I'm alot more transparent online. So that's just me. Either me.. it's just same nette in split personalities.
As for you.. cheer up yea.. least u got somethin going alr.. and you're right.. love the one u marry may sometimes evolve to marrying the one you love.. with time and divine intervention. End of e day.. nothin's impossible with God!
BUT 1st.. u have to believe for it to happen!
Hope all goes well~
I'm ok.. no worries!
Friday, October 12, 2007
if..
if lovin's so difficult..
I don't wanna love again..
sometimes.. it just tears u apart unknowlingly..
and leaves u pondering ...and wondering..
just what went wrong along the way..
I don't wanna love again..
sometimes.. it just tears u apart unknowlingly..
and leaves u pondering ...and wondering..
just what went wrong along the way..
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
days and months gone by..
I scrolled back on my past posts..
I realised that in July 2006. I was still haunted of the past.
It's strange how some memories dont really leave you as quickly as you'd like them to.
it's been almost 4 years and 4 months.. wow.. and lotsa memories still float around every now and then..
easily put aside when companions present but at times like that.. it pays a visit again.. and dwellin further into e memory still makes e heart wrench..
whatever for?!!
That's just me I guess.. place too much feel into the lil heart.. that's ever so vulnerable..
the blog i read sparked it off . ignited the sense of loss and e only memory close to that is e 52 months ago event.
I certainly don't want to lose a loved one in that way he did.. but.. it was difficult then..
During those days.. the world crashed down upon me, I was always drifting.. always hoping .. in vain, always pining for that familiar warmth, always in want.. and to make matters worse I was spun around in a web that injected new poison in me.. there was no way out and even if I had to be poisoned i held on to e thin thread.
Looking back, I realised that I've been through one of the most difficult chapters in my life.. coincidentally , those were e times where I had to grapple with the bad financial situation as well.
L O V E was a foreign word since then but now...
I understand it better again..
You just give selflessly..
well, I hope I grow outa this silly maze soon n realise how much I'm missing in life when i totally release the past..
and it just occured to me that.. thru those toughest times, I grew closest to my God..
now yeah.. Alex's situation makes more sense to me..
God's gentle presence - we usually take for granted .. but is magnified when we are down..
either way.. God is great and God is fair..
Whenever He takes somethin away from you, He gives you somethin better!
and the verse that pulled me thru my toughest days..through the loneliness,through the misery and insecurity..
Job11:13
"If you would prepare your heart,
And stretch out your hands toward Him;
If iniquity were in your hand, and you put it far away,
And would not let wickedness dwell in your tents;
Then surely you could lift up your face without spot;
Yes you could be steadfast, and not fear;
Because you would forget your misery
And remember it as waters gone by
And your life would be brighter than noonday
Though you were dark, you would be like the morning.
And you would be secure, because there is hope;
Yes you would dig about you , and take your rest in safety.
You would also lie down and no one would make you afraid;
Yes many would court your favour"
Alas this verse that He had for me gave me strength and now.. I can say His promises He fulfilled!
I realised that in July 2006. I was still haunted of the past.
It's strange how some memories dont really leave you as quickly as you'd like them to.
it's been almost 4 years and 4 months.. wow.. and lotsa memories still float around every now and then..
easily put aside when companions present but at times like that.. it pays a visit again.. and dwellin further into e memory still makes e heart wrench..
whatever for?!!
That's just me I guess.. place too much feel into the lil heart.. that's ever so vulnerable..
the blog i read sparked it off . ignited the sense of loss and e only memory close to that is e 52 months ago event.
I certainly don't want to lose a loved one in that way he did.. but.. it was difficult then..
During those days.. the world crashed down upon me, I was always drifting.. always hoping .. in vain, always pining for that familiar warmth, always in want.. and to make matters worse I was spun around in a web that injected new poison in me.. there was no way out and even if I had to be poisoned i held on to e thin thread.
Looking back, I realised that I've been through one of the most difficult chapters in my life.. coincidentally , those were e times where I had to grapple with the bad financial situation as well.
L O V E was a foreign word since then but now...
I understand it better again..
You just give selflessly..
well, I hope I grow outa this silly maze soon n realise how much I'm missing in life when i totally release the past..
and it just occured to me that.. thru those toughest times, I grew closest to my God..
now yeah.. Alex's situation makes more sense to me..
God's gentle presence - we usually take for granted .. but is magnified when we are down..
either way.. God is great and God is fair..
Whenever He takes somethin away from you, He gives you somethin better!
and the verse that pulled me thru my toughest days..through the loneliness,through the misery and insecurity..
Job11:13
"If you would prepare your heart,
And stretch out your hands toward Him;
If iniquity were in your hand, and you put it far away,
And would not let wickedness dwell in your tents;
Then surely you could lift up your face without spot;
Yes you could be steadfast, and not fear;
Because you would forget your misery
And remember it as waters gone by
And your life would be brighter than noonday
Though you were dark, you would be like the morning.
And you would be secure, because there is hope;
Yes you would dig about you , and take your rest in safety.
You would also lie down and no one would make you afraid;
Yes many would court your favour"
Alas this verse that He had for me gave me strength and now.. I can say His promises He fulfilled!
With All I am
Into your hand
I commit again
With All I am
For you Lord
You hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I am yours forever
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
With all I am
I'll walk with you
wherever you go
Through tears and Joy
I'll trust in you
I will live in all of your ways
Your promises
Forever
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMrAafe7Mns
I commit again
With All I am
For you Lord
You hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I am yours forever
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
With all I am
I'll walk with you
wherever you go
Through tears and Joy
I'll trust in you
I will live in all of your ways
Your promises
Forever
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMrAafe7Mns
I will run to you - Hill Songs
Your eye is on the sparrow
and your hand it comforts me
from the ends of the earth to
the depth of my heart
let your mercy and strength be seen
You called me to your purpose
As angels understand
For your Glory
May you draw all men
As your love and grace demands
I will run to you
To your words of truth
not by might not by power
but by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race till I see your face
O let me live in the glory of your grace
and your hand it comforts me
from the ends of the earth to
the depth of my heart
let your mercy and strength be seen
You called me to your purpose
As angels understand
For your Glory
May you draw all men
As your love and grace demands
I will run to you
To your words of truth
not by might not by power
but by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race till I see your face
O let me live in the glory of your grace
Ashamed...
I was searching for a song.. " I don't know about tomorrow" on google, a non - local search.
I stumbled upon the closest match.
Coincidentally, the song lyrics were from a Singapore blog,
even more of a coincidence.. of a couple who were both from ACS and MGS..
and.. from my very own church - Wesley..
The introduction of their blog urged me to read on..
and..
Is it me? or just human nature? I feel immensely his pain, although I've never come close to losing anyone in this way..
Then, I felt as if my life had fallen into pieces and it reminded me so much of how the loneliness took so much out of me .. Loving and depending on another so much that when you have to be on your own again, you don't even dare walk again.. you see everything in a different perspective.. you wonder how to carry on..
I read on.. and realised she went to the Lord just a few months ago. I continued to read the posts b4 then .. and it was too painful.. I couldnt carry on ...
Amidst this pain I feel for a complete stranger.. I am amazed by Alex's continued faith in God, how in the world does his thirst for God continue in those times when so much was taken away from him ..
I am speechless. .. I can't bring myself to read on .. eyes welling up beyond my own realisation..
I will revisit this site again..
I have to be reminded by someone who has lost a loved one that God has always been there for me.
I am ashamed..
Thank You Alex.
I think many have learnt much from all that you've shared.
jokwan.blogspot.com
I stumbled upon the closest match.
Coincidentally, the song lyrics were from a Singapore blog,
even more of a coincidence.. of a couple who were both from ACS and MGS..
and.. from my very own church - Wesley..
The introduction of their blog urged me to read on..
and..
Is it me? or just human nature? I feel immensely his pain, although I've never come close to losing anyone in this way..
Then, I felt as if my life had fallen into pieces and it reminded me so much of how the loneliness took so much out of me .. Loving and depending on another so much that when you have to be on your own again, you don't even dare walk again.. you see everything in a different perspective.. you wonder how to carry on..
I read on.. and realised she went to the Lord just a few months ago. I continued to read the posts b4 then .. and it was too painful.. I couldnt carry on ...
Amidst this pain I feel for a complete stranger.. I am amazed by Alex's continued faith in God, how in the world does his thirst for God continue in those times when so much was taken away from him ..
I am speechless. .. I can't bring myself to read on .. eyes welling up beyond my own realisation..
I will revisit this site again..
I have to be reminded by someone who has lost a loved one that God has always been there for me.
I am ashamed..
Thank You Alex.
I think many have learnt much from all that you've shared.
jokwan.blogspot.com
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
not me no more...
so much has happened ..
from something i've known so well
to the current oblivion..
no clue what's goin on..
no clue wats up ahead..
the lonesome walk..
smetimes feelin accompanied..
yet other times..
feelin like its me and me alone again..
for once in a long while..
hasnt been like that in a long while...
guess tis somethin i've chosen
so i'll continue with it till its decided that
it has to be taken away from me again..
afterall i decided to be selfless right from the start
so guess i shall continue..
so much to hold back now..
from qns to conversation..
feel like im bad again..
n im just not me no more...
from something i've known so well
to the current oblivion..
no clue what's goin on..
no clue wats up ahead..
the lonesome walk..
smetimes feelin accompanied..
yet other times..
feelin like its me and me alone again..
for once in a long while..
hasnt been like that in a long while...
guess tis somethin i've chosen
so i'll continue with it till its decided that
it has to be taken away from me again..
afterall i decided to be selfless right from the start
so guess i shall continue..
so much to hold back now..
from qns to conversation..
feel like im bad again..
n im just not me no more...
i need mre hrs of e day!
so much to say,
so much to do,
wish i had more hours of the day
to have my work
my leisure
and still feel like there was enough time for everything..
recently, i've been enjoyin teaching lil joey and lil glenda(once)
teaching never seemed as enjoyable last time..
so much that I've neglected my own work..
arghh..
e day's like 730am till 930pm today
and tmr's 730 till abt 10pm..
faint!
so much to do,
wish i had more hours of the day
to have my work
my leisure
and still feel like there was enough time for everything..
recently, i've been enjoyin teaching lil joey and lil glenda(once)
teaching never seemed as enjoyable last time..
so much that I've neglected my own work..
arghh..
e day's like 730am till 930pm today
and tmr's 730 till abt 10pm..
faint!
Thursday, September 27, 2007
MALDIVES~
Although, I can finally say I've been there..
Lookin back , i have to say..
its not just the place,
it's the company that doubles up making e holiday such a superb one!
Monday, September 24, 2007
the subtle bend
once thought independant..
in touch with control..
till the road took a wind
n the unexpected appeared along the bend
turned behind...
n the view appeared a vast contrast..
a subtle bend and there such a difference
all of a sudden blindness sets in
n there begins stumbling in the darkness
once a lighted path..
now.. devoid of all clarity..
where is this place..
awaiting the switch on,
meantime..
patience n careful treading
or..
total loss..
in touch with control..
till the road took a wind
n the unexpected appeared along the bend
turned behind...
n the view appeared a vast contrast..
a subtle bend and there such a difference
all of a sudden blindness sets in
n there begins stumbling in the darkness
once a lighted path..
now.. devoid of all clarity..
where is this place..
awaiting the switch on,
meantime..
patience n careful treading
or..
total loss..
trampled bud..
a bud.. soon to blossom
then trampled over by some unforeseen climate change..
struggling to stay alive..
but .. without a spine to stay upright
nothin firm to base its foundation...
then...
strongwinds hurl ..
in quick time..
in its weakest state
the unblossomed bud..
led away by the wind..
then trampled over by some unforeseen climate change..
struggling to stay alive..
but .. without a spine to stay upright
nothin firm to base its foundation...
then...
strongwinds hurl ..
in quick time..
in its weakest state
the unblossomed bud..
led away by the wind..
whom shall tis go to?
You're the Inspiration
You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I want you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go You're always on my mind,
in my heart
In my soul
CHORUS:
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more that I need you
And i know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And i know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart in my soul
You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I want you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go You're always on my mind,
in my heart
In my soul
CHORUS:
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more that I need you
And i know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And i know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart in my soul
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
if i could..
my my.. when I heard this song on the radio.. I was like wow..
beautiful, says so so much ...
sweet ..
(from the band - 1972)
If I could paint
I'd paint a portrait of you
The sunlight in your eyes a masterpiece of truth
And a single tear like a silent prayer
That's shining so much brighter than a diamond ever dared
If I could do anything at all, I'd do it for you
If I could write
I'd write a book for you
A tale of hidden treasures with an I.O.U
And a million words wouldn't say a thing
That won't be said in three words
Where love's the central theme
If I could do anything at all, I'd do it for you
Chorus
Darling can't you see
What you mean to me
Anything I can do I'll do it for you
And darling don't you know
Just how far I'd go
Anything I can do, I'd do it for you
.....
And love don't keep score
But I wish I could give you more
If I could play
I'd play up a storm for you
A raging sea of passion that you never knew
Every whispered sound would touch your heart
And maybe for a moment I could be your favourite star
If I could do anything at all
If I could, I'd give you more
If I could do anything at all…..I'd do it for you
beautiful, says so so much ...
sweet ..
(from the band - 1972)
If I could paint
I'd paint a portrait of you
The sunlight in your eyes a masterpiece of truth
And a single tear like a silent prayer
That's shining so much brighter than a diamond ever dared
If I could do anything at all, I'd do it for you
If I could write
I'd write a book for you
A tale of hidden treasures with an I.O.U
And a million words wouldn't say a thing
That won't be said in three words
Where love's the central theme
If I could do anything at all, I'd do it for you
Chorus
Darling can't you see
What you mean to me
Anything I can do I'll do it for you
And darling don't you know
Just how far I'd go
Anything I can do, I'd do it for you
.....
And love don't keep score
But I wish I could give you more
If I could play
I'd play up a storm for you
A raging sea of passion that you never knew
Every whispered sound would touch your heart
And maybe for a moment I could be your favourite star
If I could do anything at all
If I could, I'd give you more
If I could do anything at all…..I'd do it for you
goin crazy!
since i got back from sunny MALDIVES it's been a mad rush for work and I havent even had time to load my pics, rest well and blog abt my holiday!
SUCKS!
n i've to wake up at 630 yest n tmr for the weekly class over the next couple of weeks! I feel like im back in school again! wakin up at such hours.. seeing kids in uniform waiting at e road for their faithful school bus 'uncle'
Oh man!! I never complained so much in a long while..
and then there's this irritating headache and sore throat that's been giving me their ad-hoc visits n driving me to the wall!
On hindsight..
I wish I could be firmer in life.. the personality profile assesed that I was a DRIVER & AMIABLE ..
DRIVER- I like to face challenges and make sure I get things done objectively
AMIABLE - I tend to give in to ppl and sometimes become too compromising and lose focus of my objectives!
Don't u think that's y ur facing such probs now Nette!! my GOSH!
Doesn't this clearly show how confused my personality is! I wanna lead but I want to accomodate.. Is that leading me to where I am now?? I give in to whats important and then my own importance is negotiated.. don't sound too good again!
Argh.. tmr's another long day from 630 till prob 10 ish .. and I dunno if Mambo's still on.. I think I should just call it off..
I dunno..
I better get my zz now..
SUCKS!
n i've to wake up at 630 yest n tmr for the weekly class over the next couple of weeks! I feel like im back in school again! wakin up at such hours.. seeing kids in uniform waiting at e road for their faithful school bus 'uncle'
Oh man!! I never complained so much in a long while..
and then there's this irritating headache and sore throat that's been giving me their ad-hoc visits n driving me to the wall!
On hindsight..
I wish I could be firmer in life.. the personality profile assesed that I was a DRIVER & AMIABLE ..
DRIVER- I like to face challenges and make sure I get things done objectively
AMIABLE - I tend to give in to ppl and sometimes become too compromising and lose focus of my objectives!
Don't u think that's y ur facing such probs now Nette!! my GOSH!
Doesn't this clearly show how confused my personality is! I wanna lead but I want to accomodate.. Is that leading me to where I am now?? I give in to whats important and then my own importance is negotiated.. don't sound too good again!
Argh.. tmr's another long day from 630 till prob 10 ish .. and I dunno if Mambo's still on.. I think I should just call it off..
I dunno..
I better get my zz now..
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
TUesDay BluEs~
i woke up feelin like i cld barely swallow any water..
my throat was in unbearable pain,
but still I made it to do that special thing i set out to do! =)
just 2 days b4 the most longed for Maldives,
oh n i just confirmed its sitting on the Indian ocean, facing Sri Lanka..
Once again, so much has happened around me, the friends, the work, the little friends...
sigh.. or =) I dont even know..
Since then, she thinks she's lost her identity, her purpose n into the dark she wanders.. bad so bad.. but how to help pick her out of the pits.. takes time.. I guess.. Time heals a lot of situations but we all got to make use of e time well n not wander aimlessly I guess.. even myself.. I speak but I dont practice..
Last week was a mad clubbin week, n no more ! drinking makes the next day feel horrid n the fun always strecthes u till a horrendous day break. I've been givin in lots when they ask me to club.. but Now! i've got to be firm n refrain for a while.. INTOXICATED!! (in so many ways!)
The bad is always easy to follow huh? the good.. always seems undesirable..
time to be sane again!!
my throat was in unbearable pain,
but still I made it to do that special thing i set out to do! =)
just 2 days b4 the most longed for Maldives,
oh n i just confirmed its sitting on the Indian ocean, facing Sri Lanka..
Once again, so much has happened around me, the friends, the work, the little friends...
sigh.. or =) I dont even know..
Since then, she thinks she's lost her identity, her purpose n into the dark she wanders.. bad so bad.. but how to help pick her out of the pits.. takes time.. I guess.. Time heals a lot of situations but we all got to make use of e time well n not wander aimlessly I guess.. even myself.. I speak but I dont practice..
Last week was a mad clubbin week, n no more ! drinking makes the next day feel horrid n the fun always strecthes u till a horrendous day break. I've been givin in lots when they ask me to club.. but Now! i've got to be firm n refrain for a while.. INTOXICATED!! (in so many ways!)
The bad is always easy to follow huh? the good.. always seems undesirable..
time to be sane again!!
e story of the sweet
simple analogy yet ..
sweet temptations in this world are so real,
even the most innocent can be tempted by simple sweets..
hahaha
sweet temptations in this world are so real,
even the most innocent can be tempted by simple sweets..
hahaha
pics to post..
e fast one - married n pregnant.. tsk tsk.. im so many steps behind..
e party girls.. all heading to maldives except poor amy.. hee
n e 2 mad girls.. muahahaha!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
people in love
Sounds cute, simple n very true.. yet foolish.. ha!
The Feeling - Never be lonely
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWuk9d7UMuU
People in love get fast and foolish
People in love get everything wrong
People in love get scared and stupid
People in love get everything wrong
At least they're not lonely
Never Be Lonely
BBBBaby I think I'm going CCCCrazy
And why should I be sane without you
They tell me to fight it
But they can bloody well just try
itIll never be the same without you
The Feeling - Never be lonely
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWuk9d7UMuU
People in love get fast and foolish
People in love get everything wrong
People in love get scared and stupid
People in love get everything wrong
At least they're not lonely
Never Be Lonely
BBBBaby I think I'm going CCCCrazy
And why should I be sane without you
They tell me to fight it
But they can bloody well just try
itIll never be the same without you
Sunday, August 26, 2007
sunday Fun~
What a great sunday once agn! feels good to be up in e morning for e early svc n fellowship with the ministry's ppl.. so much to pick up even amidst their conversations.. Feel a sense of belonging even though I've barely known these people.. Thanks to the little Joey ! =)
Anywayz, headed down to check out blades n who knows Xavier the shop owner can sign too!! me the usu weak minded, feel bad saying no kinda person.. obliged n purchased the blades soon after trying em.. afterall they were so much less than mar's that was (359) ..
n cloudy skies made way to sunny sunday n there at macs sharing a large ice tea with 2 little friends.. how did i get to that level of squeezing my head in to get my share of ice tea with 2 kiddies?? hmm.. hang out with the kids u start behaving like one..
thereafter headed out for more blading n i had to enjoy e most classic fall of my history of blading.. all coz e gal set her eyes on that good bod but ugly lookin guy! thank God i only sustained one small wound even though i landed flat on the tarred ground!
Just a while ago, I had dinner with the bird that came down to dine w me.. =) yummy dinner @ longhouse.. feeling full n fat! but its almost 12... another week yet ahead..
this had been an absolutely fulfilling day!
Anywayz, headed down to check out blades n who knows Xavier the shop owner can sign too!! me the usu weak minded, feel bad saying no kinda person.. obliged n purchased the blades soon after trying em.. afterall they were so much less than mar's that was (359) ..
n cloudy skies made way to sunny sunday n there at macs sharing a large ice tea with 2 little friends.. how did i get to that level of squeezing my head in to get my share of ice tea with 2 kiddies?? hmm.. hang out with the kids u start behaving like one..
thereafter headed out for more blading n i had to enjoy e most classic fall of my history of blading.. all coz e gal set her eyes on that good bod but ugly lookin guy! thank God i only sustained one small wound even though i landed flat on the tarred ground!
Just a while ago, I had dinner with the bird that came down to dine w me.. =) yummy dinner @ longhouse.. feeling full n fat! but its almost 12... another week yet ahead..
this had been an absolutely fulfilling day!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
stormy weather
its been a while since the storms decided to pay a visit.
and now that they are here..
the sun really needs to come out of e hiding to bring sunshine into the surroundings again.
Bad storm .. Very Bad weather...
where's the brolly..
just one steady brolly is good enough.
and now that they are here..
the sun really needs to come out of e hiding to bring sunshine into the surroundings again.
Bad storm .. Very Bad weather...
where's the brolly..
just one steady brolly is good enough.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
in the dark..
dark n gloomy in here..
then i got a glimpse of light,
a very tiny dot
almost non visible to the naked eye
but i focussed n refused to let go of that small hope
i treaded the path carefully,
n a stone had to come my way,
i tripped n lost some focus,
struggled hard to find again
n narrowed my vision to my only ray of light
e more i concentrated
e more it brightened the darkness in here
n then the soft ground gave way
n i was in the pits..
struggling up to that same elevated ground isnt very simple in darkness again
but.. i'll just take 1 step at a time..
and.. if the stupid ground does give way once more
I might just be convinced.. i shld be treading another path
Y am i counting on my own strengths when I am only Human..
Y didnt I remember the original source of my strength...
Now I shall..
then i got a glimpse of light,
a very tiny dot
almost non visible to the naked eye
but i focussed n refused to let go of that small hope
i treaded the path carefully,
n a stone had to come my way,
i tripped n lost some focus,
struggled hard to find again
n narrowed my vision to my only ray of light
e more i concentrated
e more it brightened the darkness in here
n then the soft ground gave way
n i was in the pits..
struggling up to that same elevated ground isnt very simple in darkness again
but.. i'll just take 1 step at a time..
and.. if the stupid ground does give way once more
I might just be convinced.. i shld be treading another path
Y am i counting on my own strengths when I am only Human..
Y didnt I remember the original source of my strength...
Now I shall..
y its never easy
Sometimes we say things we shldnt ,
Other times we dont say things we should
SO whenever do we say when we should n not say when we shouldn't .
We never will have the answers coz it's always you who knows the answer.. not me
Y can't we fit..
Y can't we see
Y can't we figure...
Y can't we ever resolve ...
Is it so difficult letting the drift drift ,
Is it so difficult walking the same road walked b4..
Is it so difficult finding the rainbow after the storm..
Seems easy when it appears yet after some storms u search n search
and it never appears
How does a bud blossom when insufficient care is placed unto it
How does a bud wither when too much care in placed unto it
what can we learn from experiences..
why can't we learn..
why is it so easy to know
yet so difficult to do what we know..
i suck at this..
im tired of this ....
Other times we dont say things we should
SO whenever do we say when we should n not say when we shouldn't .
We never will have the answers coz it's always you who knows the answer.. not me
Y can't we fit..
Y can't we see
Y can't we figure...
Y can't we ever resolve ...
Is it so difficult letting the drift drift ,
Is it so difficult walking the same road walked b4..
Is it so difficult finding the rainbow after the storm..
Seems easy when it appears yet after some storms u search n search
and it never appears
How does a bud blossom when insufficient care is placed unto it
How does a bud wither when too much care in placed unto it
what can we learn from experiences..
why can't we learn..
why is it so easy to know
yet so difficult to do what we know..
i suck at this..
im tired of this ....
Saturday, July 28, 2007
im a chicken
confessions
now u know..
im a coward..
i try to look undisturbed n strong
but really ..
im a total chicken
n my phobias go far n wide
from life's issues to..
e horrid sight of ya sis description of the fangs of the thing she saw.
i hope i dont get a nightmare 2nite.
ha~
n i remind u of???
now u know..
im a coward..
i try to look undisturbed n strong
but really ..
im a total chicken
n my phobias go far n wide
from life's issues to..
e horrid sight of ya sis description of the fangs of the thing she saw.
i hope i dont get a nightmare 2nite.
ha~
n i remind u of???
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
to ease the unspoken mind
sometimes we dont understand fully,
there will undoubtedly be ppl who dont try to put themselves in such situations,
there will be others who do but still lag behind coz it's difficult to fully grasp n understand
and yet some will constantly wonder what it'd be like and offer their best ..
do u know where I stand..
amidst the crowd who like to remain in their comfort
or amongst the few who'd stand up to the challenge..
the path less climbed would always bring greater setbacks
sometimes pain, suffering..
struggles that appear and leave em wondering y that very path was chosen
So, what's in it at the end of this path?
Disappointment? Weariness and failure?
Any of these absent would prove this climb unreal.
Trials like these are bound to be present.
But the end point gives direction and focus,
falls are unavoidable but serve their purpose..
to strengthen the weak,
for greater courage to persevere.
That would be my reason to pursue
what many would decline.
My purpose goes far beyond my comfort for selfish gains
but for Love for another
and that builts me up to stride n continue my journey
fearless of the trials that lay ahead.
there will undoubtedly be ppl who dont try to put themselves in such situations,
there will be others who do but still lag behind coz it's difficult to fully grasp n understand
and yet some will constantly wonder what it'd be like and offer their best ..
do u know where I stand..
amidst the crowd who like to remain in their comfort
or amongst the few who'd stand up to the challenge..
the path less climbed would always bring greater setbacks
sometimes pain, suffering..
struggles that appear and leave em wondering y that very path was chosen
So, what's in it at the end of this path?
Disappointment? Weariness and failure?
Any of these absent would prove this climb unreal.
Trials like these are bound to be present.
But the end point gives direction and focus,
falls are unavoidable but serve their purpose..
to strengthen the weak,
for greater courage to persevere.
That would be my reason to pursue
what many would decline.
My purpose goes far beyond my comfort for selfish gains
but for Love for another
and that builts me up to stride n continue my journey
fearless of the trials that lay ahead.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
party pics!
pic 1: looks very much like our prom pic taken in 1999pic 2: joined celebration william
pic 3: brudders alvin and markie
superb party!!!
I've survived! The entire weekend was packed with loads of activities and.. it's monday morning now..
I'm so glad that this party was arranged together with classmates from CA5 . ... how time flies and how we've all gone on our separate paths but still have remembrance of each other..it's been 8 long years since graduating from AC and wow! did any of u realise that??
When I look at everyone , I can't help but think back on the days where we led much simpler lives.. hanging out together.. going to arcades, walking aimlessly, studying together, sleeping during free lessons, rushing to the stingray shop during recess, exercising as a class during free periods... it's a nostalgic feelin reminiscin on the past..
Now this time has gone by and the memories we hold so dearly..
Thanks for comin down boys and girls..
and to all those who honoured my invite..
Your presence ~ greatly appreciated...
pics next up
I'm so glad that this party was arranged together with classmates from CA5 . ... how time flies and how we've all gone on our separate paths but still have remembrance of each other..it's been 8 long years since graduating from AC and wow! did any of u realise that??
When I look at everyone , I can't help but think back on the days where we led much simpler lives.. hanging out together.. going to arcades, walking aimlessly, studying together, sleeping during free lessons, rushing to the stingray shop during recess, exercising as a class during free periods... it's a nostalgic feelin reminiscin on the past..
Now this time has gone by and the memories we hold so dearly..
Thanks for comin down boys and girls..
and to all those who honoured my invite..
Your presence ~ greatly appreciated...
pics next up
Just let me say~
submission is the best policy..
Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens will tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend
Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrenderedTo You my Lord and Friend
So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace,the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face
And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens will tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend
Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame
Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrenderedTo You my Lord and Friend
So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You
And the depth of grace,the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Sovereign God
Glad I spoke to Daniel abt my greatest phobia.. he told me to continue searching for my answer but he also highlighted and emphasized something I already knew.
It’s strange how God sends His answers .. I asked and the answer was right b4 me.
But I was too blind to see and still God is kind..
He sends someone to re-emphasise the exact thing I held on to.. not only that
.. this answer was further backed with scripture.
My God is sovereign and I should realize that He has given me mercy.
Now.. I have greater conviction that I’ve been holding on far too much to the material things of this world- Earthly treasures that are only impt now and are temporary. So why oh why do I cling on to these things..
There’s so much more trust I’ve to built up in my God.. trust Him to lead my path, make it right and made perfect in His sight.
It’s strange how God sends His answers .. I asked and the answer was right b4 me.
But I was too blind to see and still God is kind..
He sends someone to re-emphasise the exact thing I held on to.. not only that
.. this answer was further backed with scripture.
My God is sovereign and I should realize that He has given me mercy.
Now.. I have greater conviction that I’ve been holding on far too much to the material things of this world- Earthly treasures that are only impt now and are temporary. So why oh why do I cling on to these things..
There’s so much more trust I’ve to built up in my God.. trust Him to lead my path, make it right and made perfect in His sight.
Friday, July 20, 2007
ready to go..
all my bags are packed
im ready to go
i'm standing here
outside ur door
i hate to wake u up
to say good bye....
just thot of this song while i was packing up for the weekend escape..
1st to co retreat tmr.. and then for my party the next day!
its gonna be a rough week!! hope i survive!!!!
im ready to go
i'm standing here
outside ur door
i hate to wake u up
to say good bye....
just thot of this song while i was packing up for the weekend escape..
1st to co retreat tmr.. and then for my party the next day!
its gonna be a rough week!! hope i survive!!!!
Sunday, July 15, 2007
zzzzzz.....
I'm tired..
have literally burned out my weekend sleeping at 3 am and waking at abt 7/ 8 am
gosh.. tmr's monday n i'd better get a gd week.. another hectic week of wk!
so many 1st times today eh?? hahaha
i so agreee..
glad ya still =) ..
have literally burned out my weekend sleeping at 3 am and waking at abt 7/ 8 am
gosh.. tmr's monday n i'd better get a gd week.. another hectic week of wk!
so many 1st times today eh?? hahaha
i so agreee..
glad ya still =) ..
Saturday, July 14, 2007
lifenomorephobia
yeah.. strange as e title may sound or look.. I've been having weird thoughts about life recently. Sucks to know that Life's so short and all we can do is THIS much.
I confessed during my Bible Study that there have been friends or colleague's parents who have suddenly passed on.. and it struck me as shocking news.. Worst of all.. the thought of cancer is announced and e lifetime is left in the hands of the deadly cell..
Imagine , thinking ur fine... and e next moment, Doc says you have 5 more months to live. ..
What would go thru your mind???? I can't imagine.. I'd be in misery.. how can i chose to let go of all the relationships I've so carefully laid my foundations for..
Y oh y do we have to be stricken with such illnesses and be taken away just like that. the Lifenomorephobia comes in coz somehow.. I'm full of fear of losing a loved one, a close friend and I certainly don't like to know that I'm clueless about my recent bout of weight loss. I'm even in fear of suddenly losing all I have on this world, my family, my relationships, my material collections.... if my life is taken away from me.
This fear is unfounded and I'm glad my Bible study mates said a prayer for me, for God to take away such irrational fears and I'd better seek Him to find strength and trust in Him.
Our lives are but a gift,
it is not ours to keep for eternity.
I have to trust God to lead my path..
I confessed during my Bible Study that there have been friends or colleague's parents who have suddenly passed on.. and it struck me as shocking news.. Worst of all.. the thought of cancer is announced and e lifetime is left in the hands of the deadly cell..
Imagine , thinking ur fine... and e next moment, Doc says you have 5 more months to live. ..
What would go thru your mind???? I can't imagine.. I'd be in misery.. how can i chose to let go of all the relationships I've so carefully laid my foundations for..
Y oh y do we have to be stricken with such illnesses and be taken away just like that. the Lifenomorephobia comes in coz somehow.. I'm full of fear of losing a loved one, a close friend and I certainly don't like to know that I'm clueless about my recent bout of weight loss. I'm even in fear of suddenly losing all I have on this world, my family, my relationships, my material collections.... if my life is taken away from me.
This fear is unfounded and I'm glad my Bible study mates said a prayer for me, for God to take away such irrational fears and I'd better seek Him to find strength and trust in Him.
Our lives are but a gift,
it is not ours to keep for eternity.
I have to trust God to lead my path..
too sensitive too much
ha! now now.. in case some people always get suspicious that I'm referring to them when i talk about certain stuff in here.. it's time to chill!
me blog in me space and i dont think i need to put in a disclaimer just so that u wont think this is against u.
I freely speak here.. about life .. about anything.. about nothing.. about me , not about me..
please refrain from taking all this personally.
and as for the recent thoughts..
that'll be on e next blog..
me blog in me space and i dont think i need to put in a disclaimer just so that u wont think this is against u.
I freely speak here.. about life .. about anything.. about nothing.. about me , not about me..
please refrain from taking all this personally.
and as for the recent thoughts..
that'll be on e next blog..
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Love in any Language
dedicated to little joey...
ole time classics.. I've once again mastered signing the chorus!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nmi1KYC5Htw
Je t'aimeTe amo
Ya ti-bya lyu blyu
Ani o hev ot cha
I love you
The sounds are all as different
As the lands from which they came
And though the words are all unique
Our hearts are still the same
Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all togetherNever apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here
We teach the young our differences
Yet look how we're the same
We love to laugh, to dream our dreams
We know the sting of pain
From Leningrad to Lexington
The farmer loves his land
And daddies all get misty-eyed
To give their daughter's hand
Oh maybe when we realize
How much there is to share
We'll find too much in common
To pretend it isn't there
ole time classics.. I've once again mastered signing the chorus!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nmi1KYC5Htw
Je t'aimeTe amo
Ya ti-bya lyu blyu
Ani o hev ot cha
I love you
The sounds are all as different
As the lands from which they came
And though the words are all unique
Our hearts are still the same
Love in any language
Straight from the heart
Pulls us all togetherNever apart
And once we learn to speak it
All the world will hear
Love in any language
Fluently spoken here
We teach the young our differences
Yet look how we're the same
We love to laugh, to dream our dreams
We know the sting of pain
From Leningrad to Lexington
The farmer loves his land
And daddies all get misty-eyed
To give their daughter's hand
Oh maybe when we realize
How much there is to share
We'll find too much in common
To pretend it isn't there
frustration
y does frustration fill..
everything should be done in moderation
so as to reduce unncessary anger spills..
i shldnt.. arghh..
everything should be done in moderation
so as to reduce unncessary anger spills..
i shldnt.. arghh..
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
ideals vs feelings
was having a conversation about the 2
idealistic people tend to have a picture of their ideals
and when they get too caught up about ideals
they forget about feelings.
In truth, one has a theoretical aspect
the other has a feely aspect
doesn't go together
just like how we evolved from apes - Scientific based on theory
and how God 1st created us as humans - non Scientific
when we get too stringent with our ideals we forget that we are in a human world.
where we become organisms when we are void of feelings..
something we all need to keep our checks on..
idealistic people tend to have a picture of their ideals
and when they get too caught up about ideals
they forget about feelings.
In truth, one has a theoretical aspect
the other has a feely aspect
doesn't go together
just like how we evolved from apes - Scientific based on theory
and how God 1st created us as humans - non Scientific
when we get too stringent with our ideals we forget that we are in a human world.
where we become organisms when we are void of feelings..
something we all need to keep our checks on..
empty is?
it is walking through an empty path
found an interest .. empty no more
empty path is filled with colour and just filled
one day without interest, bizzare..
2 days without.. bizzare still
longer.. not so bad
much longer.. starting to get use to empty again
much much much longer.. empty is normal
soon.. it is empty
empty is it..
the irony of life..
found an interest .. empty no more
empty path is filled with colour and just filled
one day without interest, bizzare..
2 days without.. bizzare still
longer.. not so bad
much longer.. starting to get use to empty again
much much much longer.. empty is normal
soon.. it is empty
empty is it..
the irony of life..
work work work
today..
up since 7am now.. 130am.. still finishing up my work..
shouldnt have slacked so much last week.. now i have a mountainous pile to complete.
What's my function.. strangely confused of late.. taking up roles I never cld find time and strength for..
It's alright .. I'm still happy.. least for now..
I like to know I'm different..
up since 7am now.. 130am.. still finishing up my work..
shouldnt have slacked so much last week.. now i have a mountainous pile to complete.
What's my function.. strangely confused of late.. taking up roles I never cld find time and strength for..
It's alright .. I'm still happy.. least for now..
I like to know I'm different..
Saturday, July 07, 2007
so not over you
So Not Over You lyrics -Simply Red.
Don't know why I still slept on my side of the bed
The emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my head
Told myself I really had to move along now
Stop regretting all the things I left unsaid, yeah yeah
So I tore up your letters
Took your picture off my wall
I deleted your number, it was too hard not to call
Felt a little better, told myself I'd be fine
Got to live for the good times up ahead, yeah yeah
[chorus]
'Cos everywhere I go
There's a love song that reminds me of you
And even though I knew I had to be strong
I was still not over you
'Cos I still believe and I could see how there's nothing left of you and me
That time is over
'Cos I'm so not over you
All my friends try to tell me better find somebody new
Why waste time being lonely when there's nothing left to lose'
[ So Not Over You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Anything to get you out of my mind
I'm a fool if I thought I could forget
And I could not forget
[chorus]
Now I found a way to keep you there beside me
To where my love won't be denied
I can only hope to keep you there and guide me
There's no more need to hide from all this pain inside
Chorus
So not over you
That time is over
'Cos I'm so not over you Not
So Not Over You lyrics
Don't know why I still slept on my side of the bed
The emptiness when you were gone kept ringing in my head
Told myself I really had to move along now
Stop regretting all the things I left unsaid, yeah yeah
So I tore up your letters
Took your picture off my wall
I deleted your number, it was too hard not to call
Felt a little better, told myself I'd be fine
Got to live for the good times up ahead, yeah yeah
[chorus]
'Cos everywhere I go
There's a love song that reminds me of you
And even though I knew I had to be strong
I was still not over you
'Cos I still believe and I could see how there's nothing left of you and me
That time is over
'Cos I'm so not over you
All my friends try to tell me better find somebody new
Why waste time being lonely when there's nothing left to lose'
[ So Not Over You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Anything to get you out of my mind
I'm a fool if I thought I could forget
And I could not forget
[chorus]
Now I found a way to keep you there beside me
To where my love won't be denied
I can only hope to keep you there and guide me
There's no more need to hide from all this pain inside
Chorus
So not over you
That time is over
'Cos I'm so not over you Not
So Not Over You lyrics
Beyonce's Superb !
DiVA man!
A song that's stuck in my head! maybe it's glenda's fault.. ha!
Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release
Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside
and turnedInto your own,
all 'cause you won't listen
ListenI am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than whatYou've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
There was someone here insideS
omeone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen
Listen lyrics
A song that's stuck in my head! maybe it's glenda's fault.. ha!
Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release
Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside
and turnedInto your own,
all 'cause you won't listen
ListenI am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than whatYou've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
There was someone here insideS
omeone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen
Listen lyrics
week of virus
for obvious reasons..
I'm down again with a string of viruses.. ranging from sore throat to flu to some feverish feel..
ARgh!
This week has been one heck of a lazy week feeling like that..
and still I faithfully honoured the request to go to mhi today..
oh well.. why oh why..
anyhow.. hope the weekend doesn't burn me out so much.. I just wanna lazzze.
Hope all's good with the bird who claims lack of attention..
I'm gonna be there tmr!
Alrighty..
time to check out!
0210 yikes!
I'm down again with a string of viruses.. ranging from sore throat to flu to some feverish feel..
ARgh!
This week has been one heck of a lazy week feeling like that..
and still I faithfully honoured the request to go to mhi today..
oh well.. why oh why..
anyhow.. hope the weekend doesn't burn me out so much.. I just wanna lazzze.
Hope all's good with the bird who claims lack of attention..
I'm gonna be there tmr!
Alrighty..
time to check out!
0210 yikes!
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Justice, Mercy and Peace
Just glimpsed through my church bulletin and an excerpt caught me there!
Justice - gives us what we deserve for doing wrong
Mercy is when we hold back what people deserve and give them what they do not deserve
A peace maker is one who releases the power of peace and changes the world.. it's in the presence of everything right..
Such simple definitions.. but brings indepth thoughts to my not so merciful heart.
Justice - gives us what we deserve for doing wrong
Mercy is when we hold back what people deserve and give them what they do not deserve
A peace maker is one who releases the power of peace and changes the world.. it's in the presence of everything right..
Such simple definitions.. but brings indepth thoughts to my not so merciful heart.
Monday, July 02, 2007
deeply inspiring
THE POWER OF THE DREAM
Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strength of just "I can!"
Has brought together people of all nations
There’s nothing ordinary In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girlAs they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can
You’ll discover that you can
The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream
Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strength of just "I can!"
Has brought together people of all nations
There’s nothing ordinary In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girlAs they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can
You’ll discover that you can
The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream
tribute to nana
hope u dont mind me putting this up here.. but what u said today seemed all so familiar to me..
relationships that suddenly seem weird and imbalanced have to end.. why do ppl have to put in repeated efforts only to be cast aside and treated like rots after everything..
I'm glad to see that msg from na today coz I dont believe anyone should be treated 2nd grade!
and for that we shall celebrate! =)
relationships that suddenly seem weird and imbalanced have to end.. why do ppl have to put in repeated efforts only to be cast aside and treated like rots after everything..
I'm glad to see that msg from na today coz I dont believe anyone should be treated 2nd grade!
and for that we shall celebrate! =)
my little tution kid
a whole new experience. interesting to teach and converse with, engaging, very different from all e rest. ha!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Saturday, June 23, 2007
life's surprises
the last half a decade have been the most memorable ...
every step of the way.. there's always a pebble or rock along the path that I'll remember..
it's easy to trace the happenings of the last years and I'm glad I am where I am..
Jon the unknown has just brought new surprises to my life..
funny how i always try to play things low .. so much that I overlook certain happenings that appear so clear to others but a simple shade of grey in my eyes..
Would it have been better to know or not to..
puzzles me..
nonetheless..
life is treating me well till now..
so why should i be in complain..
2006 was a year of not so many right turns..
2007 should have more rights.
every step of the way.. there's always a pebble or rock along the path that I'll remember..
it's easy to trace the happenings of the last years and I'm glad I am where I am..
Jon the unknown has just brought new surprises to my life..
funny how i always try to play things low .. so much that I overlook certain happenings that appear so clear to others but a simple shade of grey in my eyes..
Would it have been better to know or not to..
puzzles me..
nonetheless..
life is treating me well till now..
so why should i be in complain..
2006 was a year of not so many right turns..
2007 should have more rights.
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