Ashamed...

I was searching for a song.. " I don't know about tomorrow" on google, a non - local search.
I stumbled upon the closest match.
Coincidentally, the song lyrics were from a Singapore blog,
even more of a coincidence.. of a couple who were both from ACS and MGS..
and.. from my very own church - Wesley..

The introduction of their blog urged me to read on..
and..

Is it me? or just human nature? I feel immensely his pain, although I've never come close to losing anyone in this way..
Then, I felt as if my life had fallen into pieces and it reminded me so much of how the loneliness took so much out of me .. Loving and depending on another so much that when you have to be on your own again, you don't even dare walk again.. you see everything in a different perspective.. you wonder how to carry on..

I read on.. and realised she went to the Lord just a few months ago. I continued to read the posts b4 then .. and it was too painful.. I couldnt carry on ...

Amidst this pain I feel for a complete stranger.. I am amazed by Alex's continued faith in God, how in the world does his thirst for God continue in those times when so much was taken away from him ..

I am speechless. .. I can't bring myself to read on .. eyes welling up beyond my own realisation..
I will revisit this site again..
I have to be reminded by someone who has lost a loved one that God has always been there for me.
I am ashamed..

Thank You Alex.
I think many have learnt much from all that you've shared.
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