lifenomorephobia

yeah.. strange as e title may sound or look.. I've been having weird thoughts about life recently. Sucks to know that Life's so short and all we can do is THIS much.

I confessed during my Bible Study that there have been friends or colleague's parents who have suddenly passed on.. and it struck me as shocking news.. Worst of all.. the thought of cancer is announced and e lifetime is left in the hands of the deadly cell..

Imagine , thinking ur fine... and e next moment, Doc says you have 5 more months to live. ..
What would go thru your mind???? I can't imagine.. I'd be in misery.. how can i chose to let go of all the relationships I've so carefully laid my foundations for..

Y oh y do we have to be stricken with such illnesses and be taken away just like that. the Lifenomorephobia comes in coz somehow.. I'm full of fear of losing a loved one, a close friend and I certainly don't like to know that I'm clueless about my recent bout of weight loss. I'm even in fear of suddenly losing all I have on this world, my family, my relationships, my material collections.... if my life is taken away from me.

This fear is unfounded and I'm glad my Bible study mates said a prayer for me, for God to take away such irrational fears and I'd better seek Him to find strength and trust in Him.

Our lives are but a gift,
it is not ours to keep for eternity.
I have to trust God to lead my path..