disgruntled?? i don't know...

I wish I could write about how beautiful life is just like e blog entry posted by andrew fang's wife... Perhaps I'm just caught up in dissatisfaction.. I shldn't ... should focus on my blessings not all e negativity..

Today was a packed day buzzing around in my lil whitie.. and travellin north to west to east n then to YWCA for a ministry meeting.. We're supposed to plan e school cirriculum for the kids for 2008.. tat encompasses quite a bit..

I realise that Christmas bells give me that warm tingly feeling.. and somehow.. Christmas always seems to feel more complete with a loved one to spend e season with as well.. but.. oh well.. that's e commercialised aspect.. Christmas is supposed to be Christ Focussed.. perhaps to remember the Birth Of Christ brings us back to our roots again..

Im constantly at a tug of war betwn work, play and God... I need to reflect again.. will I be able to do it in BKK?? the land of thai 'girls', ah 'lady boys' and loads of shopping and food??? hahha.. already.. the thought sounds utterly sinful.. I shall try to catch up on my Max Lucado book.. Facing your Giants in e comfort of my Somerset Residences Svc apartment..

E past week has been a little more balanced altho drinking with Na's bro - Xavier certainly gets me intoxicated.. else.. I've been able to slow things down quite a bit..

n na.. maybe I'm just confused.. maybe i've not given up .. but mar n I feel the same .. nowadays.. its difficult to find it.. we get too fussy more often to even let it start..
Such is the irony of e typical s'porean woman's life.

I think CONFUSING is the word...