cruelty

the look of the silver needle was once excruciating
the pain of the pain it caused enhanced the pain of the 20 secs
and then with every pain that we go thru, we get used to it.
but how can one be such a wimp
to hide away with convenience 
and yet use this very experience to taunt
that "that's all you know how to" 
that Im being inhumane
and that Im being useless..
how can one cause so much pain with
statements they dont even understand
how can  that even be a kin
Severing ties when they go doesnt seem difficult a road to chose.
Never protected me, 
never provided for me,
never looked out for me..
he is heavy.. 
God help me.

-the single child-

come what May

Its a new month,
just about 5 months,
things could have been worse
I could have lost her
but I haven't.
Sometimes I still do take it for granted
and often I find myself shuffling between
treasuring and
reminding myself to preoccupy time with other matters.
Just so that I strike a balance and not fall too deep when that one day comes.


My lifestyle altered,
outlook in life transformed,
lost some faith
alot of strength
and then prayed for it to be added again.


The battles far from over
but I'm trying to build up an army
while the odds are presently in my favour
and when that day comes
I hope to be able to bear it all,
still stand tall
and continue being of great faith
glorifying the source of my strrength.


God has been good.


Still... Not my will but yours..
One not so fine day,
Not so soon I pray..
come what May.