Christmas Day

Mum has been a diabetic for the last 20 + years and she has been on oral
medication. However, early Dec, she has been walking unstably. With the
help of a friend, we managed to get a specialist consultation very quickly
on the 22nd of Dec.


The specialist told us that her glucose levels have reached alarming
levels n that she has to start being on the Insulin injections. (which I"m
quite sure made her somewhat depressed) He also persuaded to ward her but
she refused. (yep, who likes to be warded)
Dad and I had to be taught how to inject mum and it was also one of the
most painful times for me as well. We went back home and I realised dad is
getting old too, he cant quite remember the steps although i could tell he
was trying his best to. Eventually we ran through e steps together but dad
was afraid he"d make a mistake.


I had no choice but to take it from there and pretend to be confident....
Blamed myself for doing it wrong e 1st time and had to jab mum twice
instead of once, for taking out her blood to check against e glucometer
only to realise I did it wrongly as well.


Its just not easy starting a life w all these needles esp when i used to feel faint with e sight of them or a drip of blood.


These are teething problems. I have to get better as time goes by.
Also, the sight of needles and blood appear in my mind every night i close my eyes I
hope it will go away soon.


Its Christmas Day today, mum vommitted 3 times and felt numbness on the left of her face. Dad and I decided it was best to send her to a&e at SGH. Docs speculated stroke. Till now they have not concluded as she lies in the Neuro ward.


I"m partly glad I can take my mind off needles for a while but I hope they can conclude soon what the root of the problem is. They suspect its stroke and are trying to determine it with the help of almost 6 doctors who've seen her. They can't be very definite because hers isn't a classic stroke case.


I ask for you to say a prayer for my family and most of all recovery for mum and that she responds well to the insulin. It'd would be lovely if our dear God could create a miracle and just make everything ok, take away her diabetes and this stroke. She must be feeling very frustrated not being able to walk around and eat freely and yet have to get pricked more than 10 times a day and have blood drawn from her.


Pls also pray for strength and peace for my family as we go through this difficult time. My Faith is being tested again and again. I've also taken time off work and have absolutely no appetite every day.


Lastly, for all who"ve taken health and family for granted, do eat healthily even during this season of celebration and dont trade anything for precious family time.