running thoughts

while running the mind thinks more simply
I asked myself a few simple qns
what have I achieved this year
the immediate answer was - nothing
Not spiritually, Nor in r/s
Not financially, Nor at work
and then a small inner voice spoke
and for once in the year I realised
I have been a good nurse to mum
she's been nursed back to a good state
and then I stop to say
Thank You Lord
for equipping me with more patience and love
everytime I feel so void of it..

One thing for everything

The way we do one thing reflects on the way we do everything.

I have a dream, a song to sing

I have a dream, a song to sing

To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream
I’ll cross the stream - I have a dream

day 7, 8 , 9 .. im back.

the days that followed were those that led to recovery.
wanted to be focussed to overlook,
find activity that brought joy,
be useful..
and of course release more endorphins with lots more exercise.

The long weekend was busy but purposeful,
no drinking with the gang
home-in dvding
early nights,
early mornings
interacting with the kids for the old school concert
and 6km clocked at macritchie and ecp.
on top of that, yammi yoghurt with almonds to whet my appetite before every dinner. =)

all is well.. im back on my feet again..

looking back, I guess I just needed to break free..
when the bird has clipped wings,
it just loses meaning to life..
Managed to flap some happiness in the end of these 9 days
and I hope to be permanently back..

it is true that
when the inside's not feeling right,
the whole life is in disorder..
nailed it!

Day 6

Boss had a one to one in me and opened a can of worms abt my past year
She said I was different the whole year.
Darn, hate exposing the emo side of me.
But I did.
She wants me to hit a new level before the financial yr ends but I need the weekend to figure it out.
Doubt I have the strength to undergo new stress.
Her advice to me was that u have to be cruel sometimes and u need to release all this burden that's weighing u down for too long.
Just when I was trying to sweep things under e carpet I had to face another reminder.
Nvm, it's the end of the whole week. Will figure it out v soon.
This week had alot more activity than last but I realized some things no activity can replace. It's something more than that which has to go by hook or by crook.
Can't bring it with me to the new year.
Today I shall look forward to yummy dinner plans. :)

Day 5

List was out
Took a proper lunch w colleagues to keep from being alone
Finished a big pile of work
Made it to the fellowship w e sg ladies
A proper day.
An early night.

day 4

Another fulfilled list.
Lunched w em.
Became a nicer person.
Booked Air tix. YES!
Tomorrow needs a fatter list.

Looking forward to baddy.

day 3

not so good, took the day off.
Half fulfilled today's list.
Lazed and dvd-ed the evening away.
Back to work tomorrow,
New To-Do List.