a little more gas

The presence of family is always heartwarming
a family in big numbers or even small..
conversations that are exchanged
the little bickers that arise
but deep within,
little is needed for much understanding
only because foundations were firm from the start
transparancy and a v close knitted tie..

Was it envy or a simple desire..
perhaps the latter..
perhaps even a craving to be of some importance
not even a pat on the back
but less pressure with the peak hours return
or a little more fish on my plate FIRST.
the tummy's full
but the heart gets heavy and sometimes hungry..

and then when the gripe starts
I stop to plea for strength
or remind meself to count the days..
and then my tank is filled with a little more gas..