secularly religious

I read up some personal thoughts and did a little reflection once more. Feel torn between.
For a while I've been allowing emotions to control me.
I've been more discerning on the good and bad and yet torn between being the 2 sides.

have i been allowing myself to live too comfortably in the real world where it's cold, selfishly driven and sometimes 'thoughtless' or have i simply been ignoring the prompting to stop and think about my actions..

i face money issues and allow it to eat into me when perhaps to another person, what I have is an abundance of luxuries. Do i take pride that I've earned my right to enjoy or realise I'm over-indulging. Have I been a good stewart of God's blessings.

I am guilty.

There is too much to improve on.
I have been too proud.
The list may be long ..
but I've got to learn...
to start from number 1.