time changes everything..

Browsed thru some pics to find out whats been going on in ppl's lives the last 5 years.
Many who fumbled through ups and downs found themselves in the last 3 years.
couples tie the knot.. babies form in short spans of time.
Looking at their pictures, I wonder if they see their lives as complete or still inadequate in many ways..
Pics always take the best moments .. no wonder we always think ppl are having a better life than ourselves..
But life is simple really..
How complicated can it be..
We just have to take it step by step and make each step the best it can ever be.
It can't be that tough..
I hope u'll help me see things from better perspectives..

rice & rooster..

rooster catches sign of some grains of rice,
knows that its tough to get to the other side
it will be a challenge..
hesitates..
thinks alot..
and braces up the chicken heart..
a few flaps .. some hurdle makes it almost impossible..
and then..
a thought..
better to think thoroughly and conquer for the good of a better tomorrow..
and conquer did the rooster..
without falling to any hole or ruffling too many feathers..
all"s good..
sometimes we need to face our fears ..
chuck out the old stuff and things become alot easier..

July

July's supposed to be a great month but strangely.. it hasn't been the worst but it hasnt been the best
I handled 2 changes in a way that wasn't quite me coz it meant alot to me
and after that I was given a new piece of news that wasnt too ideal as well..
if I had studied some astrology maybe i'd have been able to predict days like 10th, 12th, 13th, as black days of the month..
the new news on 14th .. i guess adds to all the negativity of the past days but .. i'm starting to get used to all of this..
..
dont rem getting such a chain of rejection in consecutive days before!
Hope it ends soon!! may yesterday be the last of all this ...
I've kinda given up planning around ppl, situations..
just do it !

nogo

today i learned that its a no go.
a bout of intense frustration followed by
immense disappointment..
had to step back to think thru things
realised that I had to be on my own again.
=(
life is SO NOT like a box of chocolates
coz almost every piece of choc wld be delightful..
life's like digging into soil
sometimes u get the good clean soil
and then sometimes u get the yucky wormies n insects..
and sometimes u dig and dig and u just keep seeing the worms..
either way,
i cant wish for anything else
and no point regretting on anything..
i cld have been really mad
but im glad it was kept in check.
siaaannnnnnn but i guess its
time to do it aloooonnnnne..

secularly religious

I read up some personal thoughts and did a little reflection once more. Feel torn between.
For a while I've been allowing emotions to control me.
I've been more discerning on the good and bad and yet torn between being the 2 sides.

have i been allowing myself to live too comfortably in the real world where it's cold, selfishly driven and sometimes 'thoughtless' or have i simply been ignoring the prompting to stop and think about my actions..

i face money issues and allow it to eat into me when perhaps to another person, what I have is an abundance of luxuries. Do i take pride that I've earned my right to enjoy or realise I'm over-indulging. Have I been a good stewart of God's blessings.

I am guilty.

There is too much to improve on.
I have been too proud.
The list may be long ..
but I've got to learn...
to start from number 1.

the cave

Introduced to a cave.
Yup a cave in a building with a lot of people
and lights and seats and in a place called an auditorium.
far from my idea of a cave.

a unique experience though,
being decieved to a library,
to catch a play..
simple as it was,
surprising as it was,
enjoyable as it had been.
the best part of it lies with the thought =)

haven't been this pleasantly surprised in a long while..
least not in the last 10 years.

(= thank you =)