my condition diagnosed part I

Im drained out..

I reviewed my condition - self diagnose - Suffering from a lack of "nutrition"

Feeling down after that long Monday and whilst driving and speaking to myself and the nocturnal friend I realised that I needed someone that could teach me, be my pillar of support, "add" to me..

Looking back, I used to attend svc feeling like there was always a new msg to take home and much to give during the time of worship.

recently, I realied that there was a huge void I didn't know how to fill.. I go on Sundays preoccupied with the "hundred and one things" to do during SF, the food that had to be planned for, the lessons to bring forth, the planning for next few weeks, delegation, organisation etc.. How was I to listen with that heavy heart and deafened ear.

then i realied, all this time I've been doing everything for everyone, trying to add to other people's lives, but there's been absolutely no one here adding to mine. I was working so much I became a Martha..
Mary simply sat at Jesus feet and she was favoured, He provided the nourishment for her.. the bread of life. that was all that was required.

Need to learn..