the books day 1&2

Consider it
Pure joy when faced with
Trials coz the testing of our
Faith leads to
Perseverance which must finish its work so that we may be
Mature & complete, lacking Nothing.

R called me from thailand..

a simple call to ask how I was.
he could tell from that instant that I wasn't feelin too good.
Asked what it was and told me something new..
That he doesn't believe in taking more than 2 days to feel that way..
Coz thereafter it's easy to fall deep into the =( trap
and sometimes allowing urself to remain that way can turn into something called
A HABIT

true..

then i thot of Pbf and realised that she's always saying she's unhappy.. she's almost used to being an unhappy person. Even at times when happiness knocks on her door she sees it as a temporary event.

HABIT indeed..

something new to learn everyday..

my condition diagnosed part I

Im drained out..

I reviewed my condition - self diagnose - Suffering from a lack of "nutrition"

Feeling down after that long Monday and whilst driving and speaking to myself and the nocturnal friend I realised that I needed someone that could teach me, be my pillar of support, "add" to me..

Looking back, I used to attend svc feeling like there was always a new msg to take home and much to give during the time of worship.

recently, I realied that there was a huge void I didn't know how to fill.. I go on Sundays preoccupied with the "hundred and one things" to do during SF, the food that had to be planned for, the lessons to bring forth, the planning for next few weeks, delegation, organisation etc.. How was I to listen with that heavy heart and deafened ear.

then i realied, all this time I've been doing everything for everyone, trying to add to other people's lives, but there's been absolutely no one here adding to mine. I was working so much I became a Martha..
Mary simply sat at Jesus feet and she was favoured, He provided the nourishment for her.. the bread of life. that was all that was required.

Need to learn..

orange october...

been a very good weekend.. catching up on sleep and time at home and enjoying the new room and toilet I've done up for mum & dad.. =)

It's been rather quiet on this space coz there's always insufficient time to get everything done and this has become one of the last priorities..

Tomorrow I'd be leading a session on How can we have faith.. The flesh is weak indeed and it's a test leading such a topic.. gotta be filled with the Spirit..

End of year plans .. no plans now.. Was hoping to meet u.. but.. yeah I know plans are subjected to change and that means there's 1 less thing to look forward to..

How now brown cow?? Jetstar's having 1cent 1 way flights to Bangkok.. and the other airline has a 2 for price of 1 promotion.. maybe I'll head to Hk with pseudo bf..

may the month end on a chirpier note..

im not good at this..

deepak's guinea pig claimed that Im always taking the happy pill and I don't understand the pains that people go thru.. perhaps I am too logical.. try to be different from the rest and people just dont like it because I don't agree with them..

Hiaks.. this is just me .. I suck at being the pouty complaining girl next door.. and that's because it sucks complaining when that changes nothing.. Shift of paradigm is my solution.. life becomes so much more enjoyable.. think out of the misery box..

the world of madness sometimes sucks as it is.. what greater joy can be found adding to all of this trash..

Chose to tell myself that there's always something good in every bad.. and I think its a whole lot healthier this way..

Not gonna change myself But I hope the negativity doesn't pull me down..