day six..

it's day 6th now.. n the whole event's over..
time flies.. the years, months n days..
just a while ago.. I sat there looking at her.. wondering how i'd really feel when she's gone..
wonder no more now..
Certainly meant alot more to me than I even thought. The visits were intentional, I didn't wanna lose a loved one not knowing her on a more personal level.. That's what happened to dad's mum and i didn't wanna make the same mistake again..
While I was at it.. I constantly told myself that we'd never know when ... but we'll just do our part.. n I was largely disappointed with myself initially not being able to take her for that joy ride I promised.. But I believed He had a purpose of putting everything into place n the joy ride just wasn't part of the plan. Looking back, I still wish I had the chance to..

Well.. learnt alot over time.. n recently, I just realised that I've been taking my very own life for granted.. 86 years is alot to make good off.. n if I ever get to see those years.. I better make the best out of it.. I'm glad granny did - n one of her achievements was in creating us.. without her, woosh n the whole family line would have been non existent..

today was a tough and tiring day ..
off to rest for another long day tmr...

going home..

not somethin pleasant to blog about .. but I'd just do it to get it off my chest.
30/6 was not a long time ago. and once again im reminded of how short life can be. It really is His choice when and how He decides to take you home.

Thought she was gettin better.. n a turn of events just changes everything. Im glad I did my part by being there sporadically. Now looking back, I certainly miss those times where I would just hold her hand n talk to her about nothin in particular. Asking the silliest questions just to entertain her.. asking her where she travelled just to get her thinkin.. feeding her.. asking her how old she and I was..

Well..in the beginning ..I felt at peace seeing her lay there in such a peaceful state..
but i just realised again.. i miss her already..

BUT it's ok, she's in a much better place..

weekend's over

looking back.. it definitely wasn't much of a restful weekend and yet.. there's so much to remember. It's great when conflicts with friends and specific loved ones are kept away and there's joy and love buzzing all around.. =)
tis is one happy weekend.

Spoke to Mar n friends abt r/ships n the why's and how come's .. and then even without a valid answer from them. I derived an answer to my questions.. tis week brought alot of the past back.. but I'm so glad to be able to look at it all without a tinge of regret. Finally something to be proud of.

And now as the new week arrives.. I've got to get back into the motion n make things happen.. been distracted of late due to my latest addiction..

n at 122am.. hunger strikes..yikes..