struggles...

I spent many hours at e fun fair today and the queer weather.. sunny, then heavy downpour and then sunny again.. everything was so expensive.. fund raising.. wats new.. In the end I bought 80 bucks worth of tickets..and half the time i wasnt eating all that much.. just wanted to be the mother hen amongst the kids.. ha..

oh well, i had a nice conversation with u fei zai.. and I still have to say the dark is eating me away slowly but surely.. it's strange how i even feel parts of me fading away .. every day.. just like the song lyrics.. and tho i love u so.. temptation finds its way back to me.. the sturggles we face everyday.. to stand firm on what we believe in.. just when ppl thought i was strong.. they dont know i'm actually all weak inside..and constantly fighting some sought of a battle ...

It's really not easy and I need to draw strength from Him.
and.. it's really much easier being in the company of God fearing and seeking people..