super sunday!

as i awoke..

i realised that it was a brand new day n the night had passed..
shifted my focus to make good of the day..
just 2 hours ago, joe told me .. that there is life in faith ??!! that's the best thing EVER!!!

Thanks be to God..

Glad I shared that with you and clarity prevails now..

rainbows appeared again..

facade

Lying beneath the surface

remains a different kind of face

Onward thoughts of happiness

weakening in weariness

Positive injection thought best

yet having gone thru a series of test

failure not once but twice and thrice

how do i come close to that prize

for transformation to something better

and still to some it just dont matter..

Fading memories of that journey...

how could it come so early..

....

not self created misery

nor unsolved mystery...

it all comes down to what's inside...

the aching wont subside...

journey..

Just as I was feeling down and out.. this song came along.. and there.. wat a great song to lift my spirits ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7vzR2m660U

Journey

Half the world is sleeping,

half the world's awake

half can hear their hearts beat

half just hear them break

I am but a traveler,

in most every way

Ask me what you want...to know

What a journey it has been

And the end is not in sight

But the stars are out tonight

and they're bound to guide my way

When they're shining on my life

I can see a better day

I won't let the darkness in,

what a journey it has been.

I have been to sorrow

I have been to bliss

Where I'll be tomorrow,I can only guess

Through the darkest desert

Through the deepest snow,

Forward always forward, I go..

What a journey it has been

and the end is not in sight

But the stars are out tonight

and they're bound to guide my way

When they're shining on my life

I can see a better day

I won't let the darkness in,

what a journey it has been...

Forward, always forward...

Onward, always up...

Catching every drop of hope

In my empty cup

What a journey it has been

And the end is not in sight

But the stars are out tonight

and they're bound to guide my way

When they're shining on my lifeI can see a better day

I won't let the darkness in,what a journey it has been...

What a journey it has been...

struggles...

I spent many hours at e fun fair today and the queer weather.. sunny, then heavy downpour and then sunny again.. everything was so expensive.. fund raising.. wats new.. In the end I bought 80 bucks worth of tickets..and half the time i wasnt eating all that much.. just wanted to be the mother hen amongst the kids.. ha..

oh well, i had a nice conversation with u fei zai.. and I still have to say the dark is eating me away slowly but surely.. it's strange how i even feel parts of me fading away .. every day.. just like the song lyrics.. and tho i love u so.. temptation finds its way back to me.. the sturggles we face everyday.. to stand firm on what we believe in.. just when ppl thought i was strong.. they dont know i'm actually all weak inside..and constantly fighting some sought of a battle ...

It's really not easy and I need to draw strength from Him.
and.. it's really much easier being in the company of God fearing and seeking people..

ello weekend..

Weeeeeee!!! weekend's here once again..
It's been almost a week since I've arrived back home from the Philippines.. and still I'm missing it so much. Yesterday was a tiring day!! had the company Awards dinner and because the food was serving so slowly, many turned to drinking on 'not so full' stomachs resulting in drunkies being born every moment. Thank God, with my sore throat it was excuse enough for me to refuse the many attempts to get me drinking w endless supply of wine.

Ended up sleeping at 4 and I had a morn meeting today.. winked for 4 hours only. no wonder i look like ... ; hahahaha.. Im realllllliiiii tired by now..

Oh well, tomorrow's saturday and ACJC's Fun-O-Rama is here!! It's actually been 10 long years since my first one.. YIKES!! feelin old again.. oh well I've never missed a single one since graduation and I look forward to e visit back to school again.. tis time bringing the kids from church and hopefully we wont spend too much time finding lost kids.. heh..

Alrighty... cinderalla's gotta tuck in b4 e clock strikes!

IT's been a fantastic March! May April bring as much joy and satisfaction or perhaps even better~

....

sweet memories..

Take me out of the Dark

One of e songs I discovered during e time in Philippines and its lyrics are amazingly apt 4 me..

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6akprtIarwQ


Just what is it in me?

Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go
And though you're in me now,I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all
And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear
Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold
And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way
I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Renewed in Spirit

Alas I have returned. So much has happened the last week. Im raring to tell the world how much I've learnt how much I've seen how much I've experiened. and even though many may not fully understand. Much of what I've gone thru can only be felt and not explained. I've seen situations that can bring me tears of joy and other times tears of being thoroughly ashamed.

Having gone for this missions trip would be one of the greatest things that I've been blessed with in at least the last decade and no matter how many beautiful hols I've been to, Maldives, Australia, Bali, Redang.. the beauty in this trip is somethin only the heart can feel.. no words can describe the beauty of it all.

Even if my memory should fade, I will store this part of me in a place where it can never be stripped away. Even if I'm on a high now, in terms of my renewed faith in God, and things may not be rosy for all time. It doesn't matter, I will continue to bask in this sunshine of goodness from my dear Lord.

Phil in 36 hours..

I continued e day with piles of work to complete. Why do I always end up with this last minute mess to clear .. obviously due to the slacking last week..

Plane’s flying off in a days time.. for Philippines, I’d be a mission tripper in this Laguna deaf school, with games, activities and Bible lessons.. sounds like so much fun IF I were a kid again but now fun doesn't come in quite appropriately. there’s so much to do.. We’ve prepared much over the last few weeks, logistics, lesson plans and the entire 7 day trip details to sought out..
Alas.. our last meeting today which also means everything’s up to Him to guide us thru..
hectic Friday, I’ve got that stack of work to be submitted and I pray that there won’t be any missing fields that’ll cause my cases to be returned. Also, emails and calls to follow up on
Above everything, I’d still need to prepare for devotions for the trip itself and structure my exact lesson to be presented. So much to do so little time..

where's that peace i need ..

Sigh.. alrights, complains get u nowhere so, I shall keep my focus on God, to guide me through these obstacles and for certain, amidst the packed schedule we’d be having, I’d be able to find greater joy n peace in Philippines and I shall give thanks for that.. =)

My friends, Pray for me while I pursue this enriching week some distance away..

-today-

ur contribution to my -today-
1st day to work in 4 days old whitie,
proud to be behind her wheels...

e day lasted till half past nine and exhaustion replaced exuberance..
was a great harvesting day.. yet nothin else could place a smile on the tired face..

until e reunion with the lemon teab .
quenching my thirst.. and lifted e spirits..
simple appearance yet profoundly felt.
what more does it take than a simple sugary delight to brighten the nite.
Anytime I'd exchange for that when another today approaches.. =)

Fulfilling today with lemon teab

Joyous Weekend

Bout of rising temperature mixed with a very challenging captain's ball competition released me from the heat wave .. (2nd place)

but .. once i hit the sack, bug hovered around again..

by sat nite.. a visit to butter .. full blown fever revisited and resided till 4 in e afternoon. 1 round of panadol and virus fled..

well enough to head to the army mkt to get last round of trip requirements.. and brought the kids out to chill at Bussorah Street. =) ( my latest hangout)

Sun nite.. and im back into the pink of health..

Thank God..

shan't risk it, prob head to get poked by e nurse.. my trip's in 5 days time!

meantime, need to get lots more rest.

Check out 0045.. oOpZ.

5 hour handicap

it's strange how we ever lived without any form of communication tool on us. I left my hp in bro's car and was without it for a good 5 hours.. Felt lost and seemed like a part of me was missing!! ha! Was afraid I had missed some impt calls and there.. my voicemail box was Full in just 2 + hours..

What kind of world are we in man..

What's gonna happen when im in Phil. and the network's attrocious in some rural areas..