12 Apostles

Setting sun beaming
End of day with shores still gleaming
Stacks standing tall
Even amidst strong wind’s call
A Picturesque scene
Unspoken beauty
I am amazed
I stared to daze
I could find no words of description
For my God’s Extravagant;Excellent Creation

LOSING WEIGHt???

IT's strange, over the last 2 months people have been pointing out that I've been losing weight.. have I ??
I can't understand.. my weights the same, I haven't been eating less or more and I haven't been exercising like the race days.. so is it possible... time to do some monitoring.. something must be wrong
~ me or the weighing machine!

Blabbers

Today's one of the more fulfilling days, work and meeting up with ole friends.. Friends I've known for the longest time since Primary 5.. 14 long years ago...It's good to look back sometimes and realise that there are all these important people in your lives.. friends you don't have to meet all that often but when you do.. there's so much to talk about and the bond just rebuilts each time you meet.

Anywayz, it's not easy getting back into the work mood after the long weekend but I think I'd better not slack too much or it's gonna be doubly difficult getting back into things come 1st Jan.. gee .. time flies..

Also, I've spent so much money this Christmas , bought a seiko for mum and a braun buffel for dad and some others.. I never really intended to get pressies for the oldies since we never exchanged presents since young but it's been a good year and I guess they deserve some nice surprises..

Ahh.. nuff blabbering fer now.. 3 am and my work's not done yet! Distraction over this silly world wide web is bbbaaaaddddd..

Batam on Thurs.. more spending, YIKESS!!!

the tick tick nite

There I was all tired from the trip, fell into deep sleep soon after I hit the sack and while I was in my wonderland time,
this idiot exclaimed, moon whats that!
Sigh, I woke up to a tick tick sound in the wee hours.. I shrugged it off to the idiot saying it was a ceiling problem but too late the fear had the download automation on me already.. before I could drift off to sleep .. again TICK TICK!
Damn..
Praying as hard as I could I was hoping the sound would just go away and never come back.. amidst easing my nerves and really hard praying for God to take away the increasing fear in me.. TICK TICK!
How to sleep!!!
So, fear was in me now and the silly idiot had fallen into the wonderland sleep forgetting that the stupid noise was still around..
While I was trying to talk to myself , think of the most peaceful thing, I think I drifted off into a semi-conscious nightmare.. the one where u know what's going on and you half remain in the nightmare state.. that's the worst!!
In my semi-conscious state, I heard a fight in the room, more noises and the hotel door opening and closing.. then I heard foot steps in the room, shuffling on the sofa and.. I told myself that I was just imagining coz if the idiot didn't hear it , it couldn't have been real.. So till now.. I'm still using the practical theory to explain what happened..next morning, sunshine took the fear away, but tick tick till continued ticking... where it came from, I couldn't decipher..

Now I'm back in SIngapore in one piece and lived to tell the story of the horrors of the Tick Tick nite!

So what exactly happened?? I'm still guessing..

My Greatest Love~

Clad in white,
dark or day in shining armour..
Uniqueness surrounds,
Comfort within,
swift yet sturdy
beauty so complete..
My latest greatest love~
there's something new to look 4ward to every new morning..
Aaaahhhhh

Hols are here

A Singapore-like winter day.. leaves intact, snow amiss but we all know what it's like when the only thing that frequents more is the cool december rain..
Away with the blazing heat.. how i love the weather these days..
Walking on Orchard Road gives me a tinge of warmth. The marvel of time and the many changes that come with it..
One year you feel this and the next, a brand new flavour.
We're just 18 days from jingle bells and the thought of Christmas never fails to give me the hair standing experience.
How I love the completeness of the year with Christmas but on flip side, when reflection's done, I am just so incomplete.. does anyone even know what I'm saying..
In any case, I hope this 25th brings joy to all around and amidst the celebrations with friends, never forgot to spend some quality time with the family..
Happy holidayz~

+ His Creation

beyond description

more pics

swift dreams

My entire weekend was burned out hunting for my fav. swift,
I'm a fussy shopper and parting with 15k.. man.. big feat to overcome..
Well, perhaps it stems from the fact that I don't come from a wealthy family, every cent's hard saved money, and being the giam siap I am, even tougher !

This was the closest I got to placing the deposit but still I never got down to it.
I'll just wait for a better buy to come by.. God will provide the perfect one fer me.
In the meantime, at least the stress of finding the 'right one' can be burried for a bit.

And.. I could have never survived the ordeal if the presence of the BIRD was absent.
Thanks birdie..

Now I'm sane again..

Since when did anyone go thru so much stress finding a suitable car.. think i'm a wee bit weird.

auzzie pics

requested that some pics of beautiful auzzie come online so here they are...

Pic 1 : my hotel in beautiful tazzie,
Pic 2 : Queer town Richmond @ a 1836 church
Pic 3: Puffing Billy in Melbourne

simple life

Some things need to be simplified.
damn!

tick tock...

Moving times,
Ticking seconds,
blazing years gone by.
Peace of breeze follow wailing storms
but never here to stay..
When it's cold, winter day droplets freeze and stay,
And then again, flowers blossom then get blown away

Day 3

it's day 3 in melb,
it's not too bad now, drove up to the GREAT OCEAN ROAD yesterday.. the ocean view was simply....... nothing can describe the view right before my eyes.. for those who don't know, obviously the road has the ocean view so the other side would wither be fields or the cliff..
we were driving along and all of a sudden the steering pulled to the right on it's own and we were spun 3 times round on a 2 lane road until we came to a halt because of a very well placed wooden pole. God's grace! We could have either overturned, a car could have been speeding the other direction and crashed straight to us or on another part of the road we could have flown straight into the ocean.. NO KIDDIN!

Today, I had to make it to a church on swanston street to thank my God for watching over me.. Tmr's gonna be another day of driving, up to puffing billy after Yarra Valley..some more shopping and then I'm finally back home sweet home to see all the ones I love..

From Tassie!

Tassie was awesome,
a truly scenic picturesque haven.. Enjoyed my stay tremendously with the cool chilly breeze, fields filled with endless green and sheeps galore.. drove for hours to see the lovely freycinet bay.. by climbing almost an hour up a mountain where the lookout is and it's simply worth the climb.. Jaw dropping scenery .. I was in heaven..

When I was down in Hobart , the people were so friendly, seemed like you could make friends just with a simple hello.. conversation starts and there.. u feel almost like a tasmanian..

Then I was in the chocolate factory, Cadbury... and the wonders of machinery and chocolate making really fascinated me.. so much to do just for a 5 second melting in the mouth!!! Got out there smelling like chocolate..

My experience in Tassie is Unique.. Can never trade any other place for a place as serene, tranquil and delightful as terrific tasmania..

Now, it's my 1st day in Melb and I'm already tas-sick, or home-sick, this seems just like sydney or maybe even singapore..
arrgh.. i'm feeling sick of city life..
Looking forward to the Great Ocean Road tomorrow!!

FORGIVENESS

Simple to understand,
difficult to master.
Memories always etched, never forgotten.
Forgiven yet grudge held so deep within..
Illusion or plain denial..
my take.. time is required ..
to fade the memory is to fade the grudge..
in good time, with magnanimous embrace
Forgiveness can come into place..
isn't it so?

Time check.. 27 months

new born athlete.

Oh did I mention?? I"M A TRIATHLETE!!!! =) not a good one.. but slow and steady will one day make it to the top 10 ! WATCH ME!

final confirmation!!

WOOHOO!!!
Finally a confirmation that I'm flying for the co. trip!!! YIPPEEE!!!!!!!!!
So looks like I'm gonna take a 2 weeks break touring the land of kangeroonies.. =)
May just do a round trip but first I've gotta find kakis..

YIPPEEE YIPPEE YAI YAI!!!!!!!

"click"

IT’s been a while since my heart and mind’s been jolted..

Thought it was a simple comedy in store.. who knew..
“click” and I was put on this journey that was such a clear reflection of my life, always wanting to get to places fast, neglecting my family and simply taking for granted those close to me.. I’ve just had an excellent reality check and looks like I’m gonna be in meditation for a bit..
For those who’ve always been trying to achieve dreams fast, never stopping to appreciate the journey.. You’ve gotta watch “CLICK”.

It’s a simple yet awfully thought provoking film.. now the pace has to slow down…

Chompz

Stingray, cai dao kueh, satay, chicken wings..
yummeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... plus belly building beer..

triathlon's comin up in 11 days..

OOPS!

Happy Belated Birthday!!

Since u still pop by my little cyber home..

Here's a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to you and hope u like the little gift PIE!!!

SMILE!!!!!

Vespa .. a step closer..

I graduated to stage 2!!!!! YYIIPPEEE!!!!

15th day of july

Bizzare tis place, potholed grounds..
Journeys unforseeable, paths scarcely even.
Many times trapped within contraints,
weak foundations causin a tumblin tower
Clueless on the next glimmer of dawn
Could it be that September day ' ninety-eight'
Or unforgettable esplanade day.

None would've thought it could take this long..
ole venues-sometimes when we touch..Play live like an undying record..
Trapped in solitude, unwilling to embrace boldness..
If backward seconds could be ..
Jus what would it be..

Reconciliation rainbows - could well be the end of day again..
If I could be once more,
would I chose to be this me..

latest craze- car???

Hmm.. y are the people around me getting their own cars???
I've been tempted the whole year but I'll not give in to peer pressure.. haha.. some little birdie told me this concept of saving till the entire value of a car before finally buying one.. so I think I'll do just that.. paying for the current car's petrol, servicing, tax and blah blah is already irritating , why should I load myself with more financial burdens..
I still think buying a home's a wiser decision..
In the meantime.. I shall not be rash.

Bali-home-sick

Sickly me went down again .. right after I arrived home from Bali.. Perhaps the virus was brewing within and the pollution that was inhaled while I “scooted” around Bali was detrimental to these lungs of mine..

The late nights, bintang beer and madly cheap seafood all contributed I guess.. but then again.. no regrets.. The beach however could’ve been a more pleasant visit if I hadn’t been the victim of peddlers who were suffering a bad drought of few tourists who preferred to be glued to the world cup fever in their home country then roll on the gleaming beaches…

So, anyone that looked not Balinese was a good enuff target and before I knew it, we had 5 people serving us, tattoing, massaging and upselling … Man.. I couldn’t enjoy the sound of the waves nor the peace and quiet I had so longed for.. what I got were a mix of Bahasa & Broken English.. where u fraaawwwm?? Massage cheap cheap.. tattoooo for you????
Alas.. if u can’t beat em, u join em , so I decided to engage in friendly conversation and then we just hit it off ..
And that was the end of my simple sun tan on golden beach Bali ….

Anywayz.. July’s gonna be a busy month, the start of another long run of targets.. Got to do it.. started on my vitamin consuming.. on the road to being stronger and hope I eventually make it for the next biathlon.. this one was a big waste!

Markets picking up.. things are looking good.. gotta go fer GOLD!

Virgin entry =)

It's e VIRGIN entry via my ipaq on somebody's network i'm tapping into..
I'm the cheapo of all cheapo 's . =)

O well pie.. Don't make me out 2 be such an impt person in ur choco life .. Miss fudgie's ten times e excitement in ur life I noe. Heh..

AnywYZ, I juz can't go without talking abt my 1st bike lesson ! It was so much fun! Only embarrassment came in e beginning when e insructor was teaching us how 2 park e bike w e side stand & main stand.. MAN.. E bike was so heavy , I dropped in on mr insructor 's side.. Me being e only gal gave me some consession n he patiently showed me some tricks..I say.. It's all abt technique!

Nywayz, embarrassment was over in a jiff when we were allowed to do rounds n I was riding like a pro.. Unlike this other malay girl who veered of course,made zig zag turns n skided e bike.
Whatever it is, even tho there were crash bars fixed 2 e bike, I'll still try 2 b xtra careful n not have a single fall. Can't wait for my cute lil vespie!!!

O well, it's 3 in e morn n its really tiring typing so much on my lil ipaq keyboard so i'll take my leave n give my strained eyes some well deserved rest.

june of excitement!!

Another holiday's comin up - Bali !
Been working my ass out over the last months and now.. another well deserved break..
Of recent times, I decided that my life was a wee bit too boring.. not much excitement so I got to the extremes!!
Signed myself up for bike lessons which will be starting tmr!! YEs!! my long awaited dream of purchasing my cute lil vespa is gonna be a reality in good time!
and then.. another crazy thing -->>> registered for the SINGAPORE TRIATHLON ... for tis one.. I never had the guts to be in such a race but I'm not gonna put too much consideration this time coz SUCCESS is for those who are willing to take the 1st step of faith! Yeah, so I've been in the pool/bike/treadmill in the last couple of days and the determinations still there.. hope I make this a good one..

Oh well, as for work.. it's gonna take the back seat for a while coz what is life with no fun, or what is life with all work.. there's gotta be a balance!

Alright.. I'll come in again..

and pie if u still frequent my space here.. hope the week's been ok w'out me. heh =)

DA VINCI CODE- bizarre!

Absolutely!! What can be more bizarre than this silly story.. Clever deception?? No, I say plain stupidity..

So I decided to catch the movie - not that I was supportive of e hype at all. But I just wanted to get a feel of how silly the movie was.. and definitely, I was not disppointed, proven! It's the stupidest movie ever!

For those who haven't been able to catch it , good to give it a miss .

How did Dan Brown even think of coming up with stuff like the Holy Grail was not a thing but a person i.e. Mary Magdalene and the stupid symbolism of the chalice signifying a woman - this leading to a fact that the space on Jesus's right in the last supper pic represented a chalice and ... omigosh .. I can't carry on..

SImply ridiculous, Far-fetched and an utter shame for being so bold to blesphemize with complete rubbish!

Only good thing i can say .. I give a thumbs up to Ron Howard , if not for the movie , lazy readers like me would have missed on the book and continued being puzzled at the hype. Now, I simply cannot understand how anyone could have EVER thought tis was true and no one's faith should ever be tested coz this DAN BROWN can be reduced to one word..

S T U P I D

VIRUS ATTACK!

Who would have thought that an irritating virus could absorb so much strength from the current frail me.
It's called a stomach flu and never have I experienced such a catalytic reaction that has ever reduced me to my bed withing 4 hours of it's discovery.
First I thought it was food poisoning but doc confirmed it was otherwise and since 5pm yesterday, I was reduced to tossing and turning in bed for the last 15 hours.
Man.. 24hours later, the dizzy spells have kicked in and the multitude if viruses are eating into my little stomach..
Sigh.. time to eat healthier and really start on some vitamin pills to get my system stronger and more immune to such lethal viruses.
tis SUCKS!

1 sheep .. 2 sheep.. 3...

Hmm..
Perhaps I should deviate on the neverending topic about life and move on to simpler writing about nothing really important.
Just came back from my 5 day Trip … and phew.. I barely missed the typhoon..
5 short days and feels as if so many things have changed..
walked the streets of Orchard yesterday and
-found Cathay open to movie goers once again.. how long has it been… Since Secondary school.. that’s more than.. 10 years!! Arrgh I’m aging.. I should quit counting..
-the site in front of Cineleisure has started it’s construction for some err.. commercial buildings??
- there’s a starbucks at the Singtel Building next to Citibank..
-Oh and drove by ECP the other day.. the golf course by the Benjamin Shears Bridge is open!!!

Singapore .. the city with everchanging landscape..

Anyhow, it appears that I’m not too excited to talk about my trip unlike the last time coz the same place somehow feels a little different with different company. Kinda wasted my time sleeping shopping and eating and didn’t even go to Disney & Ocean Park. Nevermind.. next trip will be somewhere further.. no more nearby holidays.. time for a change and time to stop wasting money on the same places..

I should be getting to sleep but the silly trip got me sleeping at 4 every nite and waking at noon. I’m still adjusting.. certainly not a jet – lag.

O and dear pie, only to you I write in here.. sorry to hear abt your PDA.. now it’s sickening coz I didn’t save your no.

Okie, now maybe I should continue counting my sheep.

another holidaY!!!!

I'm hopping on a jet plane again.. IT's been just 5 months and I'm not complaining, just hope that everyone gets along during the trip.
IT was quite a difficult decision to leave work aside and just go when I've got till the 15th to get my stuff done. Nevertheless, I thank God, all's in place..I've completed my Sydney Convention target. If nothing goes wrong that is.

On a lighter note, yes complexities are brought upon by ourselves..
I should start listening to my tiny little heart.
and anonymous, you should stop writing as if u know me..
coz it sure seems like you're buddies with my little heart..

Complexities of life

This little big place filled with all kinds of people
Are our lives meant for the persual of our own selfish desires?
Or for the people you treasure or so desire.
The irony of life,
You have it, you wanna lose it,
you don't have it, you strive to get it.
Is not this life filled with so much complexities that we should live it in the simplest manner.
Is it so difficult.
I am an idealist,
I seek the ideals that brighten my life.
As such, I probably would strech far beyond my abilities for something I truly desire.
Same for work and people.
Then the irony comes in again,
I lose myself before I achieve my so desires.
What is this life?

Anonymous, tis one's for you.

I am overwhelmed.
was that flattery for a complete stranger
or have our paths crossed in the real world.
Even though the night of day has arrived
The comments lifted up my tired soul
I am flattered no doubt.
identitfy yourself.
It puzzles me you write this way,
feels as if you know me..

from tanjong pinang

1. art of man
2. jon lookin small.

up up and away...

Been away for sometime,
Neglected many of the friends I once met with on a weekly or fortnightly basis.
Work’s been keeping me and it’d wouldn’t be fair to say that life isn’t good to me.
Yet as earthly beings we never really seem to be fully satisfied with our possessions or the life that we have been given. No matter how much we have been blessed.

Like strings of a kite that sway with each direction’s wind
directionless and clueless on the next one coming.
However, glad that there’s never been a day the other hand of that single string has released.
He had been tugging each time I darted right down.
And In good time, before the pits came forth, I was tugged up skyward once more.
How was I so blind to ignore.
Alas, I have gained sight,
And strength to soar again.

back from tanjong pinang..

The district meeting.. or they call it a "retreat" somehow ended on a better note than I had earlier thought.. The relaxed atmosphere paved the way for better relations between me and the BOSS.

So what did i do there.. or what could I have done there.. when you're in Rome you live like the Romans.. so in a Kampong, you live like the "kampongers"..
Jon and I had absolutely nothing to do, and joining the rest in the room to gossip and laze simply was un-enticing.. so off we hopped into the village asking if anyone could lend us boats. Paid a little sum of $8 for the hour and went riding the waves..no wait a minute, what waves.. I meant tide.. I felt like a fisher-woman, looking pro with the strokes using those long heavy wooden "dayungs"(oars).. exactly like the ones we see in the china movies.After an hour of being a joke, we scott off to exploring on some villager's bicycles.. (bikes that had seats pointing skyward as u peddle.. ) It was a not so pretty sight all around the little island but an eye-opener..

THE BEST THING that caught my eye.. got me laughing so hard.. PICTURE THIS!
A chicken was taking a stroll, hopped onto a higher ground, saw a stick leaning on the higher ground took a step towards the stick, one leg on the stick and one leg in the air, and to my amazement.. did a SLIDE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I would have videoed that but good scenes come when u least expect it..

It was a simple trip, but I've learnt to enjoy life thru simple means just like how they do it.
It's good to be away from the city buzz every now and then...

me a dancer?!@@#!@#!!!!!!

Gosh, attended the district meeting on a monday morning.. to my horror! I've been confirmed as one of the dancers for the D&D !!! in front of the WHOLE COMPANY!!!! MY GOODNESS!!! How can that ever be... I shall stage a fall and bandage a "bad" leg. Have to .. no choice!! DAMN!

white PAP

Dad gave me a ride to work.. one of the more interesting times with the old man..
Times like these are rare and I actually look to dad with respect for his knowledge and intelligence..

Was talking about history and economies of South East Asian Countries.. Shin Corp, Nikkei Indices, Koizumi Govt, our govt... so much..

On a not so heavy note..
one of the simpler things those of my age might not know.. I never realised that the PAP wore all white from the beginning coz Ole LEE was emphasising on being the 1st in our region to stand firm on anti-corruption laws.. and the white represents purity..

Maybe I'm just ignorant, nevertheless, you learn something new everyday.. and I learn now not to be so snobbish towards my knowledged Father.

to the commentor..

That girl wants to thank you for being there for her that fateful night.
You now have insight when drink engulfs.
I guess people fall once in a while so it's part of the learning journey..

In any case , she asks me to thank you and says that if you were not such a bull sometimes .. flowers would have bloomed and sunshine endlesssly..

Whatever it is, she wishes that all will be well with the new HK and she's leaving some wise words with you...

focus on the one who is existing, not the past and try your best not to let the EX ruin your life.. once that happens.. things get a little more difficult..

She also told me that you make a very good buddy. ( ;

farewell little one..

I contemplated, then decided then felt a tinge of sadness.. I had to part with him...
It's been almost 2 years.. many things have changed..
Before I plucked up the courage to do what i had to do, I had to keep some memories with me.. got some snaps with canon.. and the journey to his big new home..
My little terrapin ....
His new home was a big pond, joined with kois' , a turtle, tadpoles and sun rays shot right into the water..
I tilted the pail he was transported.. he was afraid, took a few steps out.. took a little peep into the 'ocean' was overwhelmed and shot right back into the pail in reverse gear. Man, I felt like I was bringing a child to see the world..
After repeated attempts, I guess the fear slowly went away.. especially after peering all around, familiarising and making sure there were other friends around.. he took the 1st plunge ,
and the rest was history...
dived all 4 corners of the pond.. the exhilaration was immense..my feelings were indescribable..
I'm happy now ...that my little terrapin's got a brand new lease of life...

Another day's passed...

Was seated in a bus today,
lady came up right beside me n stood looking at me as if I had HER seat,
naturally I made way, shifted in to give her the outer seat.
She must've been tired,
in less than 10 min
she was dozing off dropping her head on my shoulder..
thank God I have boney shoulders..
or it'd have been so comfortable she'd have slept right through..

Got to work, walked on the streets of keong saik, appreciating the interesting surroundings.. why are the dirtiest bikes parked outside an indian's place? (I'm not being racist)
Why are there still Prostitute houses in Chinatown with very unappealing, un-young women?

Had tea time at this lovely cafe down the streets, good relaxed music.. only uncomfortable thing about the place was the selling of tarrot cards and withcraft books and meditational stuff... yikes! I"m not into that stuff..

Work meeting at serangoon gardens, this man's daughter's bf, Ingor.. (pronounced as IN GO) hahaha.. CUTE!!!

Now It's home sweet home... done with my sudoku! it's fun!! everyone should try it! It's on today papers everyday. Thinking of taking part in a sudoku competition but need 3 to a team.. I have few readers here but any takers???

Time for a Break..

The weariness is wearing me thin ...
I've been contemplating another getaway..
Last hol might've been in Dec,
but now, i just need a little resort style kind of peace.
hmm.. with someone special...

Life is simply a mystery..
You never know what's gonna be given to you
and what's gonna be taken away from you..

Oh well..
on the brighter side of things..
when you're in the pits
it can only get better from there..

tis messy me.

I sit in the office at 8pm on a friday night,
tis my only avenue to destress in this gloomy place.
Gonna meet friends for drinks
I'm exhausted.
What do I want?
IT is not what I desire
I deserve more than that..
I'm easily satisfied but it's not supposed to be like that..
Life is tricky when work and people destroy the simple peace we can all enjoy.

and yes.. I've been chasing the memories all this while..
they are but a thing of the past.
Some things are not to be,
Change is inevitable.
We have to move with change.
and Life is short,
we should seek avenues that make this short time more fulfilling.

choices

Choices that we take help determine the future we have
But sometimes, the very point where the decision has to be made, we fumble.
Many times I have been put to the test
Placed at a juncture where 2 paths lie ahead.
I am certain I have chosen the wrong ones before.
and the rebellion within me often picks the more challenging of the 2.
It is easy to start but never easy to complete.
I've always believed in life being a journey
where we should have a taste of everything but at the same time
have a discerning mind.
To try, find out the good and the bad and get out before the bad engulfs you.
But I was too proud to realise that...
I am only human.
And earthly beings as we are.. we fumble.
In good times, there is a hand that picks us up.
In bad times, we just want to stay in that comfort zone and refuse assistance.
then we sink deeper and deeper..

I know there's a discerning part of me.
there is a strong conscience in me.
But there also is a strong will to engage in good and the.. not so good.
But I pray there'll come a day where I will be strong again to see what i cannot see now.

Yesterday I learnt ..
-that once we break out of the gravity pull, our freedom takes on a whole new dimension
-In Romans 6:14 FOr Sin shall not be your master because you are not under law , but under grace.
-In 1 Peter 1:3,4 I have been given a new hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead and into an INHERITANCE that can never perish, spoil or fade-kept in heaven for me.
-And.. 'He who wants to keep his garden tidy does not reserve a plot of weeds.'

tough times.

Superior gives me trouble right smack in the beginning of the year..
I'm tired of being the target.
But how do I get out?
There's something gravely in error..
Gotta do something..
Darn..
it's draining me..
Stress Periods have begun..

down again!

work's gettin me down n out!!

my ruLEz

I've learnt over the weekend...
Rule No. 1 Never expect the disappointer to brighten up the disappointee
Rule No. 2 Focus on the people who place me with importance..
Rule No. 3 One has to focus to achieve
Rule No. 4 One has to be protect oneself so that life can carry on.
Rule No. 5 the treasure lies in those who care... there's a lot more in them than anyone else...

rain on me...

It’s one of those days where I look back and am rehaunted of the past. The mind is a powerful tool, it can make or break you .. but sometimes the power of the heart can overthrow the strength in the mind ..
I am mad ..
Was clearing old photos from my notebook when I stumbled upon some pics.. wrenching.. I got to relive from this moment and burry the past. Does no good to me.

It’s been raining me silly the last days and it dampens the atmosphere, same effect to my moods.

If I could have a wish… would I still wish for that very wish…
Hard to say.. yet… even harder to reject..

What is going on in this silly head.

I miss my past..

But.. it’s a brand new year.. that’s enough…silly nette.

the warrior is a child

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing , Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me ...I'm hiding all the tears ...
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child ...

greeting 2006!

It's a brand new year and a whole list of resolutions lined up before the year started ..
Now.. 3 days into it and I hope I maintain my standards.
Went to church on New Year's Eve feeling like I've lost touch.. sermon was on the topic of backsliding and no doubt about that.. I have. It's difficult when the stress of work distracts you and makes you a harder person. I don't desire that and I think it's time to change. I have been engaging in vices and spending foolishly-also need to change.
I thank God for bringing me back each time I fall and now's another one of those times. I look forward to be the simple humble me I used to be and I hope I pick up from that desire and continue to turn to Him in all that I do.