Managing Stress

The sun is still shining bright as I gaze out my window, fortunate to many that I’m even able to see the sun shine as I enter the office and still enjoy the evening’s golden glow as I walk my way home. But as I type away, I know I’m trying to manage the stress that creeps inside. 

Today I skipped lunch to bring M to EYS to replenish the TCM  stock. Gave a to-buy list from NTUC. Gulped a biscuit and headed for a client meeting. Made arrangements to pick up the meds from the Oncologist tomorrow morning. So simple. Just phonecalls, time off work to get these things arranged but the stress of managing work, meds, groceries, financials have been taking a toll on me. 

I’ve been blessed and my Lord has undoubtedly shown me favor by still providing faithfully but I’m nonetheless fearful. Resources of time and money are being drained and well, they are positively related to each other. Less time on work equals to less money.  I’m glad that I’ve got the assurance of faith that God will see me through but the confession is that there are still times when worry comes knocking on my door.

Sometimes I don’t understand why so much has to be placed on my shoulders. I know for a fact that if I switch off and be like the IT, I could be living more joyfully but I can’t , hence the burden I chose to carry. I only have myself to blame for what I chose to do. 

I only hope and pray that God will add some points or stickers for me when I see him face to face because the  bricks not light, the wait’s not easy, the pain still lingers and the joy in life has somewhat been stolen.

Going back again to Philippians 4:6-7

Do not worry about anything but in everything through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, submit your requests to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. 

Before I even receive, I still need to thank Him for all the blessings I sometimes cannot see. Perhaps if I just focus on that and submit, my failing heart and beaten mind would be better guarded. 

For now, the fast from facebook remains. Not for the faint hearted lest I shoot myself down with pics I dare not face.

Hectic Week

The week was a hectic one.
Glad that the scare is over and things are almost back on track again. Perhaps a warning to me to treasure and work fast and hard in good times coz when back times come, it hits like a storm.
Spiritually too.. A reliance on God has given me strength I would have never been able to survive had I relied on my own strength.
This week, I learnt that in overcoming stress the first and most important thing is to just trust God to bring me through and totally lay it at his feet.

As in Philippians 4:6-7
Do not worry about anything but in everything through prayer and supplication the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

And worrying about tomorrow brings me nowehere. Just take each day as if it's the last but leave enough resources for tomorrow may still come.

May He bless p&m with better health.