I realised...

when the path's filled with an even surface we journey with ease
and then sometimes pebbled paths appear and we slow down to move along more carefully
and then when we see smoothed surfaces we easily forget what the rough times were, how bumpy the journey was.
sometimes we take it for granted and just focus on the joy and comforts of the smooth journey..
and we forget to prepare ourselves for tough times -  for practical reasons..

and today I realised.. there's a big difference between having
faith without acceptance and acceptance with faith.

the latter is my hurdle but I've gotta work on it, else my faith be tested.

Brand New Week

the last 3 days have been hectic, the weekend was all work with the major changes at home.
Mum also showed remarkable signs of recovery, she started to walk without the chair and now without the frame - just our hands. Awesome! I could say its the medication, or the vitamins, or the tonics but I think all glory goes to God for the answered prayers.

This week, mum's spirits picked up and she requested to go shopping at Metro and eat out and I was exhilarated with that request. My spirits were uplifted too and I told her that when she walks this stably my weight picks up as well.. and I've almost gained back all that I've lost. Almost.. =)

Miracles do happen and I hope God continues his miracle in mum.

Hoping and praying.
Nothing makes me happier than seeing her condition improving and seeing her smile.

May it be up up up from here..

diet changes

somehow I've lacked that inspiration to input thoughts.. too many things to do.. and I've finally figured out the effects of being a housewife or a mother..
the only thoughts are of your baby and if the baby's eating correctly, sleeping too much , feeling comfortable, except that my baby's my mummy. To top it all, I've got to be extra sure the correct medicine and dosage is given.

The days and weeks have not been easy and I pray the worst is over. Much credit has to be given to friends and family who have been giving the support that is simply priceless. We've been showered with prayer, warmth, smses, emails, food, fruits, information, visits and yup alot of love.

I'm thankful that through this crisis I've not encountered any one I call friend disappoint. Glad I've been blessed in this area and that I've not previously created discord with anyone I should now feel sorry about.

Doc's have classified it as stage 4 in the b and bone. One of the uncles came by and told us 5 of his friend got C as well but there were 4 success stories of how diet and lifestyle and a strong mind has got them on a road to recovery. They've seen cells shrink and C Markers reduce significantly.

I'm gonna take on the nutritionist role this week and research on the fruits and vegetables that will be good for mum. So far its Soursop, Beet root, Pomegranate, Avocardo, Asparagus, Bittergourd.

Will continue finding out more..

Keeping positive and prayerful and strong.

OUR Lord shall provide strength.

better day today..

dazed then disturbed
and then sleepy and then awake
ate heartily and then re-energized
we joked and laughed
about the jab..
I said that she's like a princess,
even in her weakness,
she found strength to exclaim, "What Princess, Like Queen you mean!"
The simple joys of family time..
and when night came, she had 3 masseurs by her side..
and then it was time to sleep and they fell asleep holding hands...

it started as a scary day but ended up as one of the better days.. =)

day14

Biopsy's done and results are gonna be out on Tues.


Praying for the best.


I'm getting more used to the chores but from this new week I've gotta start getting used to work and mum time... Hope I can handle it.


Meantime I dunno why mum's looking weak, sleepy, drowsy and her headache has been bothering her alot.. =(


Good that:


I've grown some patience handling dad's forgetfulness
I've grown confident with the needles and injecting everyday.
Sugar Levels been managed pretty well and I'm gonna try reducing insulin units while monitoring.
bro and I dont really fight now...