FOR-giving

read thru the last part of Matthew.. and it triggered the memory of e young begging boy by the streets af siem reap..
Walking past him, listening to his quivering voice was painful enough and yet it had always been a habit not to give into beggars in Singapore that it simply wasn't natural to give..

what was I thinking.. even if it had been a dollar, it'd have probably made a big difference to the poverty stricken life. who's to know really and here I was being all Singaporean with the "no no" to begging..

Guess I've learned my lesson to be more discerning and flexible... why pretend to be all unfeeling and come back wishing I could go back there to make ammends for that selfishness then..

Friends comment that I got cheated with the us$5 book purchased but the truth is I feel really good the kid got a sale.. I prob would have felt like I was cheating him by payng US$1...
least he made a day's takings with that book sale..

I asked our guide pidiere on the average monthly income - US50-80 !
and here we are splurging S$200 in a night out of drinks..

5 bucks means almost nothing to me, but a smirk or smile on his face.. thats good enough.. the gap's too big.. the world should be more forgiving..

Matt 26:42..45
For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prisonand you did not look after me. ...
He will tell you the truth, what ever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me"

blind spot

lurkin memories
appearing in flashes,
dwell for moments
and leave for another day..
livin by the moment's great
yet it doesn't motivate..
planned calenders dependant on factors
that cannot be revealed..
optimism tides come and go
yet the mind remains strong
disallowing pessimism's proximity...
in due time..

mars & venus

peered over to the left,2 oldies attempting to make their way toward the flat cemented ground..
Lacking confidence she took mini steps toward the edge
confidently stretched out for the wrinkled hand beside hers.
he took hold of hers tightly without a second of a thought.
two unstable ones found greater stability in that assurance...
absolutely no better balance could be seen.. perhaps it must have been felt within.
The hold was firm as their fingers wrapped around each others,
many more tiny steps and they finally made it to flat ground.
just a split second later, she quickly forgot about the help, confidence and assurance rendered by the one who's probably loved her his whole life.
In a wrinkled expression, she nagged him for not shading her with the brolly in his hand and continued nagging and nagging and nagging...

oh what a sight.. why cant we just shuddup and let our men make mistakes every now and then.. hahahahaha

Natural, cute, unforgettably a classic scene to capture in my mind for a long time..

what tomorrow brings..

days went by so slowly
and then too quickly
orchard & suntec repeats
days of beverage & lyrics
somerset,dempsey & simpang trips
gone so fast..
looking forward to the great big plan
what would it be,
when can the horizon be seen..

patience...

Matthew 6:33
33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I’ll Take Care Of You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4rxUnahSnc

Times Are Hard And Rents Are High
What Can A Working Girl Do
But Struggle Through Another Day
Then I'll Take Care Of You

Nights Are Long And Dreams Are Cold
If They're All You Wake Up To
But Should You Rise With Crying Eyes
I'll Take Care Of You

[Chorus:]
So Let Them Talk About Us
Let Them Call Us Funny Things
People Sometimes Do
I Don't Care As Long
As You Know I Love You
Oh, And You Know I Do

I'll Be There, But You Might Not See Me
It's Never Easy To Get Through
But When The Laughter Dies Away
I'll Take Care Of You

[Repeat Chorus]

I'll Be There, But You Might Not See Me
It's Never Easy To Get Through
But When The Laughter Dies Away
Then I'll Take Care Of You

Darling, I'll Take Care Of You