Laguna 2009

This trip was rather.. different from the previous one last year yet absolutely wholesome and heartwarming as ever. I was encouraged by the little deeds like Joy coming up just to say thank you for the lesson, nods and enthusiatic taking of notes during my lesson on 'leadership by example'

Didn't manage to have much time on my own except a short 2-3hour break..
I took a stroll around the cook house as Christain invited me down.. took a peek into the dark kitchen and was welcomed to step in to take a look.. walls were charcoal black and meal cooking was simple.. mass cooking in a big wok.. yet.. there was so much enthusiasm in meal time.. simple joys indeed...

Though I should not compare , I am reminded .. of the excess I have at home.. and to be thankful of the fact that I am not lacking ...

This is a unique ministry..
and as I took a walk back to my dorm.. a verse reminded me too that I have been warned that the road would never be easy but to carry on and walk with joy to finish up the race thats planned out for me..

Acts 20: 22 -24

onward march..

gotta be back with a difference..
delight me~
lookin forward..

inquisitveness killed the moon

its been many days.. im still asking the same old stupid questions sometimes..
the horizon's a beauty.. gotta head onward..

Lesson 1

I took a day off to visit A .. we took a drive up to Mersing.. for someone I haven't met in almost 5 years we sure got along very well.. Guess, you just connect with some people very well and others not so well.. No matter how little or how hard you try .. u just have to be on the same wavelength.. and that's measured by plain Feeling.. simple yet a very complex word..

It took me almost 4 hours to reach Mersing with the stops at Larkin for breakfast and the yummy Bak Kut Teh for lunch..

However long the drive was.. it was worth it..
the fishing spot was a charming place not because it had anything I hadn't seen before.. it was a quiet, serene little beachfront with islands seen popping out of the calm sea in the not so distant horizon..
Children skinny dipping with absolutely no cares in the world..
footprints seen on moist sand..
gentle waves, leaves rustling,
streams of water making its way up the shores thru the cracks of the rocky coast and then withdrawing back in its ever so calming way..

In a bit I embarked on Lesson 1 with the Master. assembling, tying, hooking up and the attraction key.. the bait. and voila.. my graceful first swing..
it was a joy just being in the middle of nature's works.. and there I patiently waited.. unknown to what it'd feel like ... was it gonna be a tug, or a jerk or absolutely nothing.. I was oblivious to the answer and then A came along and offered me an icy cold rootbeer..

Recollecting thoughts..
Sun shining down on me as I half looked around the beauty surrounding me and paying a little attention to any movement of the rod.. and in all that heat and joy and sunshine and breeze.. I was offered an ICY COLD ROOTBEER.. man.. was that a simple yet HUGE addition to the joys in me already.. I can't explain..

and so.. as I continued..
my line felt a tug! I knew that was it.. too sure.. even when it was the first time..
the pull seemed a little heavier.. and I was hoping to see something big, fat.. but there at the end of my slightly bent rod appeared a cute little baby grouper.. so cute.. I couldn't find it in my heart to kill it. A decided to release it too and as he attempted to remove the hook from its mouth.. the suffering fella made me feel so bad I was even trying to find his other bigger friends..
His mouth opened so big, gasping for air and feeling the pain of the hook then even I felt its pain..

I say.. fishing isn't an easy hobby if you feel that much for friends of the ocean you usually see dead.. when they're alive .. they carry with them a vastly different identity..
I still feel your pain .. arrghh.. Id never want to be born a fish..

and so .. Im glad he was released back to his home..
and I packed up with no prize but it was good.. I was glad we saved 3 lives today.. =)

Oh and the parable of the tangled up string.. u see a tangle, u think its simple to untaggle. But the more you try , the worst it gets and after a while you don't even know where to start .. and then you realise.. is there a point?? This thing's just wasting time and with the efforts spent in trying to untangle something almost impossible.. there's still a possibility it might twine up again. Excess baggage perhaps?? and when we're faced with that in life , sometimes its so much easier to focus on the better part of life by simply cutting off the entangled part and carrying on where you left off.. in pursuit of greater things..

And so.. 7th March.. I've learnt lots.. Im glad.. I'm contented and sometimes feel like a fool but i'm en-route.... no turning back..

Mraz.. makes it seem so easy..

I'm yours

Well uh you dawned on me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
we're just one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me ah lah one big family
([2nd time:] ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

gerbi speaks

gerbi said its better to solve AH before solving M..
I think so too..

dependency issues sometimes inflate to balllooning and rough tides.

gotta be rational.