foolishly sweet.

[E= I'm the world's best predator, aren't I? Everything about you invites you in - my voice, my face, even my smell. As if I need any of that!
E=I was afraid.. because for well, obvious reasons, I can't stay with you. And I'm afraid that I'd like to stay with you, much more than I should
I should have left long ago. I should leave now But I don't know if I can.
B=I don't want you to leave.."
EWhich is exactly why I should. But don't worry. I'm essentially a selfish creature. I crave your company too much to do what I should.
B=I'm glad.
E=Don't be.It's not only your company that I crave! Never forget that. Never forget that I am more dangerous to you than I am to anyone eslse.
....
E=Maybe that's not the right comparison. Maybe it would be too easy to turn down the brandy. Perhaps I should have made our alcoholic a heroin addict instead.
Yes you are exactly my brand of heroin.]


obviously adapted from the book of the year.. child like talk , silly as it may sound. But a very delightful read to carry on..

Christmas day events..

Had to go around 3 parties today and it was a little taxing coz i didn't get tat much sleep but quite an experience being a part of the Christmas celebrations with different families..

Rene's plc was cosy.. realised that even tho she was usually quite a nonchalent person her home decorations were clearly intricately designed.. even the red china flask blended in very well with the dining hall's christmasy feel.. cld feel the close ties between her and her daughters..thot abt mum & I and wished we cld share personal stuff to that extend..

After grabbin a cuppa my Favourite Hazelnut Low fat Latte @ starbucks to keep awake, next stop was Lynn's to pass her e wines n upon arrival I was invited into Uncle's house.. this hse was well furnished too.. 3 kids messed the house a little but the decors were v pleasantly arranged too.. aahh. when i finally get my own place.. ha..
Also.. the family.. all had their share of cleaning up the table, boys were serving the girls.. 3 sibilings got along v well.. nothin like my household nor bro & I..

Last stop was at pek's plc.. was having conversatin with Emme & Yang and Ian & wife and they were cute.. asking each other how's it like sleeping with each other everyday and their weird sleeping habits.. ha.. was amused by the things that they talked about.. drooling, punching, leaning, turning away from each other... marriage.. haha.. there's really lots to be prepared for..

quite a day...

Counting down to Christmas...

It's day 6. 24th December.. 1 day to Christmas..



Another day of giving..



i decided to do something different again today.. mum suggested delifrance or Han's for dinner.. I bravely suggested.. why don't I cook ... she said good idea.. and so I did.. dad helped me slice onions and garlic and capsicum and mushroom.. hahaha.. that's quite a bit.. he was quite a good helper.. and preparation was a lot quicker..



Finally after 2 hours i managed to whip up my Aglio Olio with home-made mushroom soup for the whole family.. and Not forgetting the beer I bought just for dad and bro..



It was a fun time with mum & dad's help and the music in the background enhanced the cookin atmosphere.. Cooking can be therapeutic..



After I went to with friendS for svc and it was great being able to cross the hour to Christmas in the perfect setting .. at Church..

Night ended late..

Totally exhausted but absolutely amazing!



*love.joy.patience*

Counting down to Christmas

It's day 5. 23rd December.. 2 days to Christmas..



I was done with work quite early into the day and finished up the rest of e Christmas cards.. In those cards were simple words.. BUT heartfelt ones..

I thanked and praised and encouraged.. I feel good doing these 3.. These things go a long way especially when you mean whatever you pen..



Candlelight service was v good .. as always.. it seems like you really feel that it's Christmas when you're in Church.. Pastor MH reminded us of focus in God even thru the gloom all around .. I think many related to what he said and I did coz it's usually when I realise there's no way out.. when I'm all helpless that I remember this creator who's known everything way in advance.. Then I realise He's the man.. He's got it all under control..



Even after all these years , going to Church still makes perfect sense to me.. I'm thankful for my enending faith..

*joy.understanding*

Counting down to Christmas...

IT's day 4.. 22nd December.. 3 days to Christmas..

Yesterday didn't end too well.. somehow.. everytime I try to do something good for some one..the person just doesn't apreciate .. early this morning.. it's more than 1 person..
What can I say.. life's like a box of chocolates.. you really never know what to expect.. Giving and not expecting anything in return.. not even 'nice-ness' or a sense of appreciation.. now that's tough..
Guess i've got to carry on.. Santa prob delivered some wrong pressies along the way.. but he's still gotta carry on his journey.. ha..

Oh well.. today.. I decided what present I wanted to get for ykJXH.. pressies for everyone.. gotta be fair.. =)
And for once I decided to have dinner with my colleagues.. been keepin to myself for awhile .. dont enjoy too much of the 'auntie' talk.. but today's an effort. =)

And tonight.. hmm.. the day's gone by so quickly.. perhaps a little time for myself tonight.. feels like some bug's gonna hit me v soon..

*love.joy*

Counting down to Christmas

It's day 3 .. 21st December Christmas is day 4 from today..

Thought I'd take time off myself by making some kids happy..
Don't know if it even meant anything to some of them but guess.. we generally had a good time.

Brought J, Joyce, YK, Yan to watch Twilight..
Awesome show..

Sunday was over before I knew it but I just hope that I made their day.. =)

*love.patience*

Counting down Christmas

IT's day 2, 20th dec.. Christmas is 5 days from today

Let's see.. Christmas is a time of giving..

I drove to the beaches of ... to lie on the fine sands whilst gazing up to the clear blue sunny skies.. what a joy!
put in effort to spend time with Lynn since I dont ever seem to make enough time for her.. blading in ECP
and then with the G sistas for a fantastic swim..
Evening I thought I was nice by spending some time with the young ones but seems like it wasn't the best thing I had done..
By 11pm I was dead tired but mum and dad called for a ride and so off i went to pick em up so that we could chill with a cuppa tea tarik in Little India..

May not have made everyone happy but I'm quite sure one of them's pleased.. =)
What a day! tiring but truly fulfilling.. =)

*peace.understanding*

COunting down to Christmas

IT's day 1 ..
Christmas is day 7 from today~
Seems alot quicker looking at it this way..
Let's see.. Christmas is a time of giving..

in the mornings of day 1 I managed to do something new..
An immaterial gift to a meanie..
What good is it to feel stifled with what you've always felt.
And even if only you feel this way..
Sometimes you feel alot better saying what you truly feel..
Truthfulness sometimes makes a weaker person..
But guess its alright.. it's when you share that you derive the joys in giving.. =)

*love*

Imperfect is me..

People look at me and wonder how I manage to do all this..
the mirror says I have done nothing..
People say they're in admiration of the things i do..
I say.. what have I done..
People think my life's complete..
I say i'm still looking for completeness..
People wonder how i've time for all this..
I shrug and wonder too..
People think I'm happy..
am I?
People think I'm a good model to follow..
I beg to differ..


Things seem 'perfecter' when they are looked upon at surface.. when the glass magnifies.. only bacteria's seen.. isn't this the case all the time..

I'm thankful though that I'm still working towards perfection..

Imperfect is me..

weekend of revival..

It's a special weekend.. from the video at fcbc - the movie played at s.f. - the same video shared at small group today..
For a strange reason, my outlook on Christianity has moved on to a new phase.
Such revivals don't happen often and this weekend has displayed how God changes things with a simple snap of his fingers..
One moment at basepoint and next soaring to great heights..

Facing the giants was a fantastic movie.. and glad the reviews from everyone was a 'thumbs up'

Perhaps when He decides to do something.. it's really done in perfection..

I'm thankful for this experience..

and I'm happy to know that we're on a journey even closer than before.. Yes the one that's been with me alot this weekend. =)

ecp bladin.

you think you've lost it all and you realise that it's still with you.
you think you've given it up and you realise you need it more than before..

What can it be?

song sung blue..

"Dream A Little Dream"

Stars shining bright above you, night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you".

Birds singing in the sycamore tree, "Dream a little dream of me".

Say "nighty-night" and kiss me.

Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.

While I'm alone and blue as can be, dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.

Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.

Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.

But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.

Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.

Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.

Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.

Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.

But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.

another life gone..

continued reading the papers n watching the televised news of LHW's passing.. felt an immense amount of sadness..
I believe I had an encounter with the girl before and as I read on about what her husband said.. I couldn't imagine the amount of grief he's going through..
Life's really unpredictable..

happiness..

was having a conversation with Lw few days back and we got into this conversation of life, disappointment, happiness taken for ranted and how situations we face build our characters..
one thing that struck me was his idea of happiness..

saw two 5 year old boys on a beach.. splashing water at each other .. fall into the water and not having a care in the world. oblivious to ppl watching them.. unknown to the pains in the world.. focussed on their splashing for a good length of time..

We onlookers..watch with envy.. and cannot avoid a smile while enjoying this simple sight..with a deep sense of desire to be in those shoes.. often we're unable to derive this child-like happiness.. because we just can't let go.. don't have the capacity to place everything aside to just be happy..
Perhaps... that describes me ..

well.. I guess.. it's all about what we want.. and even now.. when we're blessed with so much.. we look at what we lack instead of what we've been provided with..
there must be onlookers peering our way with envy
and... we dont even know!!