blabbers...

Spoke to a client who’s a designer.. her perspective of marriage’s a little different from the norm. Why do people get married she asked.. She wants to just wait it out.. see what happens, let each year pass .. kids? She loves em but she’d rather donate money to kids in poverty stricken families.. a rather different view altogether..

Driving around today and thought about the gloom all around.. didn’t realize that it has actually reached main street.. right smack in orchard road. I parked at orchard the other day only to realize it was too easy getting a lot.. or rather.. there were too many lots avail at that time. Streets seemed too empty for ‘dinner hour’
Spoke to 2 client’s today and both are worried about the economic situation, young diploma holders wondering if there was a possibility they might be retrenched..

For me.. it’s not easy as well since I’m now dealing with clients having negative thoughts of the foreseeable future.. but.. it’s ok, I’ve accepted the fact that this is gonna continue and we’ve just got to work harder.. the fittest will survive..

On hind side, the trip up Penang was rather insightful. When you set out to do God’s work, He makes everything fall into place. We were blessed with excellent weather the 1st morning of our arrival. Days before that saw horrid stormy weather and Yet the 3 days of our visit, We were blessed with summer sunny clear blue skies! =) We did not visit as members of the main contributing team but I definitely felt advantaged to have been able to be a part of the visit. I was reminded of how we often take things for granted , put ourselves first, deny responsibilities to help out in church..

And there, the people in Church were raring to move forward.. a new breed of volunteers wanting to make a change to help the hearing impaired both in penang and in the other parts of Malaysia. Some of the HI attendees from Ipoh and KL travelled 7 hours just to attend this camp and yet there were no signs of fatigue written on their faces.. and 70 year old Helen - the ONLY interpretor in church interpreting service after service .. inspired by her strength to serve..

The message sent out was akin to what moved me in Philippines, Deny Ourselves, Take up the Cross and Follow Christ.. Indeed we know it all, but we’ve failed to shed the layers that have been keeping us warm to step out of our comfort zones to explore so much more of what we can do for Him.
I had little sleep this weekend but I’m still glad I was given the opportunity to be a part of this.

having that false sense of ownership..

Knowing that you don't own what you've been working on sucks..
knowing that what seems perfect is the most imprefect ..
knowing that you've won and lost again..
or that you've lost and continued losing..
simpleness is most ideal at times..
thinking less is best..

Heading to Penang for the ministry trip tis weekend, hope the focus shifts soon.. and recovery's raring to kick in..

sleepless thursday~

IT's been the strangest 2 weeks..
things happpen for a reason but I dont know what the reason is right now..
Well, much has happened the last couple of months .. spread out over many different areas..

So much more is happening soon..
-Emme and Junyang are finally tying the knot. Can't believe it was almost 5 years since I put their hands around each other on the dancefloor.. haha.. So glad I did something GOOD!
-Was invited to some abstract party of soughts and .. I'm glad I took the plunge of rejection to protect myself from further bizzare-ness
-Work problems comin up one after another.. the current one may have compliance involved.. been praying real hard for a smooth solution.

Longing for a break from all this..
to be swept with a wave of relief ,
a whisp of fresh oxygen
to ease this choke
caused by the soot of the turmoil..
every new day gloom fills the news channels
can't do without being updated
yet can't deal with the continuous downcast atmosphere.

Gotta strike some balance
betwn the pressues at work
and get some exercise for rejuvenation..

Tough times are ahead but..
I'm confident I'd be equipped with sufficient strength to beat this..