waiting~

it's such moments where re-thinking of actions needed..
guess when all things look rosy,
people generally like to bask in the goodness n not have a thing to worry, about what's ahead..
no different from the crowd..
although, thinkin lots both in good times..
n not so ideal moments..
its good taking a closer look at how certain situations can be handled better.

It's strange how so much has happened last 12 months..
how His work has become so much a part of the journey
and whilst goodness shines, waddling away from dark waters still prevails..
many ponder at this confusion spoken of so often
and some still wonder what could possibly wear off this heart to please Him.

Guess 'm only human
and the answer remains to be answered.
Things certainly happen for reasons that we little beings on earth may never decipher
and yet we crave to know ..
and if God knew everything..
why did he still let some things happen ..

never doubted the willing heart to serve..
but this being is far too earthly to be worthy..
Strung upon matters that shouldn't be
carrying sacks that should have been unloaded at checkpoint
and reloading new ones that are far too heavy.

perkin up

changes inevitable..
some need to be ammended
corrections need to be made,
reminded so often
yet chosing the unforgiven path,
such is the err of man
yet one who stands firm in absolute belief
still remain on the other side..
it's not easy..
but what can be so difficult..

as i read rick warren's rendition..
life's struggles serve to shape our character
and what more can we learn if life were a bed of roses..

Amazing Love ,
How can it be,
That you my King would die for me,
Amazing Love,
I know that it's true,
It's my joy to honour you..
IN all I do, I honour you..

All In good time..

being me

being me..

it's not easy ..
satisfying the whole world but me
It's so easy ..
to think of everyone except me
and when I do.
it's still about everyone ..

is it too difficult being me.

being selfless n being selfish..
whats the difference when people only see what they want to see..

France - Paris

France - Paris 8/7/2008

Went for a walk today along Champs-Élysées .. weather was cold and windy - quite unlike the summer I had expected.. 13 degrees..I had to buy a small bottle of wine from the supermarket to keep me warm as we walked along that stretch - the broadest avenue in Paris. That same road connected from Arc de triomp and also led to the entire area where I finally caught a terrific view of the Eiffel Tower , Louvre, couple of the other ole dames and of course..

Cathédrale Notre Dame de Paris..
as i walked into the church, I realised that it wasn't just a tourist place, had to tone down the excited tourist behaviour to a calmer me.. it was an 800 yr old church and I respected the place as God's house, (the architecture was simply a piece of beauty)
As I looked upon the cruxificion of Jesus Christ near the entrance.. I was suddenly reminded of the pain and felt so small all over again.. His sacrifice washed us clean and yet I, the one who always preaches remains so polluted in today's world. That image in my mind, serves as a reminder for me to stay on track and not lose focus.

UK- Leeds

6th July 2008 830am, UK - Leeds
Woke up to a lovely sunday morning in Leeds,
decided that I had to set aside time.. quiet time and tis shall be the perfect morning.
First thing of the day.
A's sisters room is cosy.. and it overlooked his garden isle.. some plants in full bloom with multiple colours..
the sky may appear gloomy, the temperature cold
but when I overlook these factors and focus on the beauty of God's creation-Nature,
and fill my morning with thanksgiving for all that He's given me..
I move on to a whole new level..
So I turned on e Gary V Cd,
sat down and thought of the closest people in my life
and prayed for each one of them..

and when I was done,
the song lyrics played..
and comforted me with answers to my frequent frustrations..

"So we ask wats going on.
what is right we still do wrong..

letting go to know the truth is not so hard to do.
it’s the heart that’s got the will to open up for him to fill
entrusting and believeing in is all we got to do
its just the heart that’s got to move
for him to show his love that’s been there
even when we never care
take hold of his hand

let go and you'll understand

guess now u realise u cant be on your own
and all your cares should be cast upon his throne.

Let it go. "


Doesn't sound that difficult affterall..